for hurting you, Lucas. That was never my intention. It’s funny, I’m so worried about being hurt by others, I don’t take a look at myself and realize that I’m the one who mistreats pe ople too.
“Well, Em, I really don’t know what to say. I was just kissing you and then you go off with him and…shit, I’m so stupid. I rushed things and you practically ran into his arms again. I never did have a chance, did I?” he asks me dismally.
“I’m so sorry, Lucas. If you can believe me, I never meant for any of this to happen. I was always attracted to you but with Aiden…it’s just different , I guess. I tried to let him go but then he brought me out here and…he explained the entire situation and I was wrong about him. I’m not back together with him by any means, but I just can’t be with anyone else. I can truly be a selfish person, Lucas, and I want you to know that. The me you think you know, well, that’s not the real me. Far from it. Aiden and I are so similar and that’s why we fit. You’re so good, Lucas. You’re too good for me,” I say as he tries to interrupt.
“No , it’s true. Listen, when you get home from work, I want to tell you more about myself. Why I am the way I am. I’m not making excuses for my behavior but hopefully it will help you to understand me better. It’ll probably make you run for the hills, in all honesty. This fun, carefree woman that you’ve built up in your head doesn’t exist. She’s mean, cold, and sometimes I fucking hate her,” I say almost hysterically.
“ Em, don’t talk like that. It’s not true and I don’t know why you believe that. I really want to talk more tonight because I have to go back inside now. But know this…I’m still here for you, waiting for you. Even if nothing ever happens between us, I’m still here. Did it piss me off that you guys… were together, yeah. But I can be patient and persistent. I think you know that about me though,” he says smiling.
“Yeah, you kind of told me repeatedly,” I say smiling back.
I frown, just remembering our living situation. I would totally understand if he wanted to kick my ass to the curb.
“Are you sure that’s okay if I stay with you? I don’t want it to be weird. And you can bring back…you know, bring back chicks to the apartment whenever you want. I won’t get mad or judge you. I don’t need you to be celibate, for God’s sake. That would be like Chinese water torture for you, I can imagine,” I say with a straight face.
“ Em, you’re incredible. Well, for one, I still want you to stay with me. And two, well, I never bring women back to my place. You were the only one. It’s just not my style. I’m more of a, ‘you’re place or you’re place?’ kind of guy,” he says laughing.
“That’s awful! You’re such a pig, Lucas. You’re lucky I like you or I would have to kick you in the nuts for all the wronged woman out there,” I say actually chuckling through my tears.
“Hey, you’ll never hear any complaints out of them. I make sure to leave them incoherent before I bail. This tongue can do more than just pick a lock,” he says smartly.
I chuckle again, my tears finally drying on my face.
Lucas helps me to my feet , as I stretch my sore legs. I smile at Lucas, thankful to him for making me feel better. He’s a great guy and I envy the woman that gets him. She better not break his heart because I’ll break her nose if she does.
“Thank you for making me feel better. I really needed a good laugh,” I say, giving him a side hug.
I won’t mess around with his or Aiden’s feeling anymore. I feel like shit even leading on Lucas, telling him that I would give us a try. It’s time to grow the fuck up, Emma. No more flirting, only friendly banter permitted. Just act like he’s a chick and nothing more.
He smiles at me, trying to wrap his other arm around me for a full on hug. I do a weird tango thing, trying to move out of his grasp. He frowns, although
“Well, Em, I really don’t know what to say. I was just kissing you and then you go off with him and…shit, I’m so stupid. I rushed things and you practically ran into his arms again. I never did have a chance, did I?” he asks me dismally.
“I’m so sorry, Lucas. If you can believe me, I never meant for any of this to happen. I was always attracted to you but with Aiden…it’s just different , I guess. I tried to let him go but then he brought me out here and…he explained the entire situation and I was wrong about him. I’m not back together with him by any means, but I just can’t be with anyone else. I can truly be a selfish person, Lucas, and I want you to know that. The me you think you know, well, that’s not the real me. Far from it. Aiden and I are so similar and that’s why we fit. You’re so good, Lucas. You’re too good for me,” I say as he tries to interrupt.
“No , it’s true. Listen, when you get home from work, I want to tell you more about myself. Why I am the way I am. I’m not making excuses for my behavior but hopefully it will help you to understand me better. It’ll probably make you run for the hills, in all honesty. This fun, carefree woman that you’ve built up in your head doesn’t exist. She’s mean, cold, and sometimes I fucking hate her,” I say almost hysterically.
“ Em, don’t talk like that. It’s not true and I don’t know why you believe that. I really want to talk more tonight because I have to go back inside now. But know this…I’m still here for you, waiting for you. Even if nothing ever happens between us, I’m still here. Did it piss me off that you guys… were together, yeah. But I can be patient and persistent. I think you know that about me though,” he says smiling.
“Yeah, you kind of told me repeatedly,” I say smiling back.
I frown, just remembering our living situation. I would totally understand if he wanted to kick my ass to the curb.
“Are you sure that’s okay if I stay with you? I don’t want it to be weird. And you can bring back…you know, bring back chicks to the apartment whenever you want. I won’t get mad or judge you. I don’t need you to be celibate, for God’s sake. That would be like Chinese water torture for you, I can imagine,” I say with a straight face.
“ Em, you’re incredible. Well, for one, I still want you to stay with me. And two, well, I never bring women back to my place. You were the only one. It’s just not my style. I’m more of a, ‘you’re place or you’re place?’ kind of guy,” he says laughing.
“That’s awful! You’re such a pig, Lucas. You’re lucky I like you or I would have to kick you in the nuts for all the wronged woman out there,” I say actually chuckling through my tears.
“Hey, you’ll never hear any complaints out of them. I make sure to leave them incoherent before I bail. This tongue can do more than just pick a lock,” he says smartly.
I chuckle again, my tears finally drying on my face.
Lucas helps me to my feet , as I stretch my sore legs. I smile at Lucas, thankful to him for making me feel better. He’s a great guy and I envy the woman that gets him. She better not break his heart because I’ll break her nose if she does.
“Thank you for making me feel better. I really needed a good laugh,” I say, giving him a side hug.
I won’t mess around with his or Aiden’s feeling anymore. I feel like shit even leading on Lucas, telling him that I would give us a try. It’s time to grow the fuck up, Emma. No more flirting, only friendly banter permitted. Just act like he’s a chick and nothing more.
He smiles at me, trying to wrap his other arm around me for a full on hug. I do a weird tango thing, trying to move out of his grasp. He frowns, although
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