the door breathing rapidly. The hospital had lived up to her fears after all.
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âIt doesnât seem to me that we have a whole lot of choice,â said Ellen as she put her coffee mug on the counter. She was sitting on a laboratory stool, looking down at Charles who was slumped in his chair before his desk. âItâs a shame to have to slow down on our work at this point, but what can we do? Maybe we should have kept Morrison informed of our progress.â
âNo,â said Charles. His elbows were on the desk, his face in his hands, his coffee untouched. âIf weâd done that he would have stopped us a dozen times to write some goddamned paper. Weâd be years behind.â
âThatâs the only way this could have been avoided,â said Ellen. She reached out and put her hand on Charlesâs arm. Perhaps more than anyone, she realized how difficult this was for him. He detested any interference with his work, particularly an administrative interference. âBut youâre right. If they had known what we were doing, they would have been in here every day.â She kept her hand on his arm. âIt will be all right. Weâll just slow down a little.â
Charles looked up into Ellenâs eyes, which were so dark that the pupils merged with the irises. He was acutely aware of her hand. Since their affair sheâd scrupulously avoided touching him. Now in the same morning sheâd accused him of insensitivity and held his arm: such confusing signals. âThis Canceran nonsense is going to take some time,â he said. âSix months to a year, and thatâs only if everything goes very smoothly.â
âWhy not do Canceran and our own work?â said Ellen. âWe can extend our hours, work nights. Iâll be willing to do it for you.â
Charles stood up. Work nights? He looked at this woman whom he vaguely remembered sleeping with; it seemed so long ago. Her skin had been that same olive color as Elizabethâs and Michelleâs. Although he had been physically attracted to Ellen, it had never seemed right with her; they were partners, coworkers, colleagues, not lovers. It had been an awkward affair; their lovemaking clumsy, like adolescents. Cathryn wasnât as beautiful as Ellen but from the beginning it was more comfortable, more fulfilling.
âIâve got a better idea,â said Charles. âWhy donât I go over Morrisonâs head to the director and just lay the cards on the table, explain that itâs infinitely more important for us to stay with our own work.â
âI canât imagine it will help,â cautioned Ellen. âMorrisontold you the decision came from the board of directors. Dr. Ibanez is not going to reverse that. I think youâre just asking for trouble.â
âAnd I think itâs worth the risk. Help me get the lab books together. Iâll show him what weâve been doing.â
Ellen slid off her stool and walked toward the door to the hall.
âEllen?â called Charles, surprised by her actions.
She didnât stop. âJust do what you want, Charles. You always do anyway.â The door closed behind her.
Charlesâs first impulse was to go after her. But the impulse cooled quickly. Heâd expected her support. Besides, he had more important things to do than worry about Ellenâs moods and behavior. Angrily, he put her out of his mind and concentrated on getting the main protocol book from his desk and the most recent data books from the workbench. Rehearsing what he would say, Charles headed back up the fire stairs.
The row of administrative secretaries warily monitored his progress down the hall. The entire group knew that he had been ordered to take over the Canceran study and that he wasnât happy with the idea.
Charles ignored the stares although he felt like a wolf in a chicken coop as he approached Dr. Carlos Ibanezâs secretary, Miss
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