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these days she’s just going to drive me to a fucking shrink. The thought isn’t as funny as I wish it would be. Rick wanted to take me to a shrink. He said I was unstable and therefore should not have custody of Jax. Fuck, am I unstable? No. I close my eyes and turn my head away. I’m handling all this shit as best as anyone possibly could. I’m doing my best. I really am. My hands cover my face. I have no idea if it’s good enough though.
    Cindy’s hand squeezes my thigh. “You can tell me; I’m here for you.”
    I give her a tight smile. “It’s really hard working through the grief and anger. But I know everything will be fine with some time.” I pat my hand on her knee, “Grief is a journey, I’m just moving through it.” It’s the truth. A partial truth. The slimmest fraction of the truth. But the truth none-the-less. I’m not going to open my heart for this woman. I’m not going to do it for anyone. Not anymore. Just as the bitter thought creeps up on me, Jax squeals and Ava starts crying.
    “Jax!” He’s got her baby’s blanket in his hands. I shake my head at him, “Sweetheart, give that back to Ava, please.” Calm tones, display behavior you want to be reciprocated. I nod my head and smile. Positive reinforcement. I think about all the books I read and it all fucking goes out the window as Jax grins at me and takes off.
    Little shit. I smile chasing him down the hall and scoop his butt up. He laughs the sweetest laugh; it’s the best sound in the world. I carry him back into the playroom, lifting his shirt and blowing raspberries on his stomach. I set him down and easily take the blanket away from him. Ava and Cindy are watching us. Poor little Ava has tears in her eyes still.
    “Jax say your sorry to Ava.” I grab his hand to keep him from running. I say a silent prayer that he just says sorry. I don’t want to fight him. I don’t want to have to sit him on the naughty step and go through all that bull shit.
    “Sowry!” Cindy’s got her hands on her hips and her lips pursed. What the hell? Does she want me to crucify him?
    “Sweetheart,” I hand him the blanket. “Help Ava tuck in baby,” shit I forget what she was calling the doll. “What’s her name sweetie.”
    “Missy Jane,” she pouts but she’s not sad any more, now it’s just for attention.
    I smile at her and walk them to Missy Jane. “Let’s put Missy Jane to bed.” I hand Ava the blanket and she tucks the one end under the doll while Jax puts his finger over his lips and shushes. “Good job you two! You make such a good team.”
    It feels like a workout, but at least they aren’t screaming at each other and pulling hair. Next year. I’ve heard of the terrible twos and the fucking fours. Not looking forward to that one. I put a hand on Jax’s back to keep him there.
    “Time to say bye to Ava.” I smile at the two of them and then Cindy who’s texting on her phone.
    I can’t help but to wonder what she would be thinking if I told her about him. About Dirty Dom. I don’t know what he wants from me, but my heart clenches at how I kicked him out. I think he came to use me, but ended up being used. My smile broadens, not that Cindy would notice since she’s still furiously texting.
    I wonder what she’d think about him and then I realize, I really don’t give a shit.

Dom
    L ooks like I got here just in time. Playdate’s leaving. That sounds fucking awful. At least the parents aren’t out numbered. Two women, two kids, it can’t be that bad. The little girl shrieks as her mother tries to buckle her in. She’s got a voice on her! I wince at the ringing in my ears. I guess it can be that bad.
    At least my doll has a boy. Boys have gotta be easier than girls. I scowl watching the car leave. What the fuck am I even thinking about this shit for. I just came to check on my doll and make a few things clear.
    She’s mine now.
    I guess that’s only one thing, but still. I need her to agree to that. And then I