it was, I hadn’t gotten it. And now I felt horribly rejected in some abstract way. For the remainder of the ride, I leaned on Tammy and closed my eyes, trying not to think.
When we finally got home, the house was quiet, and we both retreated to our rooms. No sooner had I laid down did Gypsy walk in through the cat door and settle herself onto the pillow beside me.
For a moment I allowed myself to relax while petting her, but then a huge sneeze came out, scaring her off the bed. Several more sneezes followed, and I finally got up to take a night-time allergy pill and change the pillowcase before going back to bed.
Not that I was able to actually fall asleep that easy. I couldn’t stop myself from dissecting my conversation with Alex, and eventually I passed into a fitful slumber without completely deciding how I felt about the whole situation.
The next morning, I was woken by the sounds of my roommates talking in the hallway outside my bedroom. I remembered then that I had always been a light sleeper.
Opening the door, I said, “Hey, I can hear you guys now.”
“Oh, sorry,” Tammy said. “We’re used to you sleeping like the dead. You know, literally. I was just telling Amy about meeting the coven last night.”
“Did you show her the symbol?” I asked.
“Yeah, she did,” Amy said. “It doesn’t ring a bell. Anyway, I have to get to school.” She slung a bag over her shoulder and ran down the stairs.
Tammy shrugged. “I have to get to work soon, too.”
I followed Tammy downstairs, where she started making a cup of tea.
“Can you put some water on for me, too?” I asked.
“Sure,” Tammy said, getting out the box of tea.
I opened the cabinet and automatically got out my mug.
“Are you sure that you want to use that one?”
“Why wouldn’t I?”
“Because it has previously held human bodily fluids,” Tammy said.
“Well, since you put it that way….” I replaced the cup into the cabinet and got out another one instead.
Tammy put tea bags in each of our cups. “So what are you going to do today?”
“I was thinking about getting a job,” I said, getting milk out of the fridge.
“Oh, really?” She poured boiling water into our cups. “So soon? You don’t want to wait and see if you become a vampire again?”
“I don’t think it’s going to happen until I get deliberately turned again, and Alex was pretty against that happening.” I looked down and stirred sugar and milk in with the tea.
“That’s odd,” Tammy said. “I wonder why.”
“He said something about how I should appreciate being human.”
“I guess he’s right, even though I could see why you would be pissed at hearing him say it.”
“I don’t know if pissed is quite the right word, but yeah.”
“So you’re just going to try to forget about him, or what?”
I shook my head. “I don’t think that’s possible, but I guess I could try.”
“And what about Ethan?”
“What about him?”
“You’re both humans now, so maybe you could have a shot at a real relationship.”
“No,” I said, taking a gulp of tea. “Because he’s still a blood doll for another vampire, remember?”
“Oh, right.” She took her cup to the sink and rinsed it out. “Well, I’ve got to get going to work, but I guess I’ll see you later.”
I nodded to her and sat with my tea at the kitchen table, but she poked her head back in a few minutes later as she was putting her jacket on. “Oh, did you want me to send that symbol to Nina? She might be able to help us do research.”
“Sure, I guess.”
After she left, I sat with my tea for a while longer, and noticed one of the copies of the symbol I had drawn was on the table. I picked it up and starred at it for a good, long, few moments, before admitting that my own brain was very unlikely to provide any further insights.
Finally, I brought my tea into the room I used as a home office and checked my email. There was a message from Harry, my old
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