a
bunch of college guys for weeks on end, but then she always comes back looking
for Ryan.”
“He’s
pretty fed up, I asked him why he didn’t get a restraining order on her” I tell
him
“I
have told him to do it, but I think that he feels like I would resent him in
some sort of fashion if she went against it and was locked up. He tried to help
me stay straight. I don’t think he wants to see me join my dad’s club, he’s
worried I would end up in jail. Which I would, I mean everyone does time at one
point or another, but Ryan has always tried to protect me. I think that’s just
who he is, but he doesn’t want to protect Holly, but he does it for me”.
“That’s
kind of sweet of him, I mean messed up that he puts up with it but he’s a good
friend” I say
“He’s
a really good friend, but I think you are changing that” he grins looking at me
“Why
is that?” I ask
“Because
he likes you clearly, but Ryan doesn’t do long term or relationships of any
kind, you are changing things for him and he hates change. So he’s just going
to keep fighting it off. The fact that I am in here with you right now is
clearly pissing him off. I have never seen him use a girl the way that he did
tonight. He wasn’t into what he was doing, he wanted a reaction out of you, and
he didn’t get it. I think he’s going to be pretty angry with me when I see him
next.”
None
of this makes sense. Ryan is a guy who I messed around with, I asked him to make
us something and he refused. That was his choice, the rest of this is getting
to be too much
“I
have given him a chance to make something out of what we have, it was his
choice to not date me. I can’t sit around all day and wait for him to change
his mind. The fact that he would use that girl in any manner at all means he is
not the guy for me, I want someone who can treat me with respect, not someone
is afraid to face his feelings. He would never be able to treat me the way I
know I deserve.”
Alex
looks at me “You are probably right, I mean he is my best friend, but I don’t
like the way he acts out. It can be pretty exhausting when you have a crazy
little sister and a man whore friend.”
“I
couldn’t do it” I laugh
Alex
left a short while later, giving me a kiss on the forehead. Before he leaves he
looks at me “you are pretty amazing Emmalyn, I’ve spent the last 7 hours with
you tonight and I can’t imagine not knowing you a little more. No matter what
happens with Ryan, I would really like to be friends with you, if you think
that’s okay?”
His
eyes are brightened with hope, he wants to keep me around. He isn’t giving me
some bull shit about not wanting to date, he’s not asking me out, but he isn’t
trying to act like a douche either. “Of course” I tell him “I would love that
Alex”
I
lean up and give him a kiss on the cheek and he leaves.
Right
after he left I checked my phone before heading to bed. There was a text from
Ryan
R:
Can you work tomorrow morning?
E:
Sorry, just getting this. What time?
He
didn’t reply. I was lying in bed just about to fall asleep 30 minutes later
when my phone rang
“Hello?”
“Hey”
Ryan says, he sounds quiet
“It’s
4:30, what do you need?” I ask
“I
just wanted to see if you could come by at around 8. I have a bunch of errands
I need done and I can go with you so you know what needs to be done for next
time.”
He
called just to give me a time. Okay.
“Um,
yeah sure. I have to go to bed now though, I am going to be exhausted, I’ll
stop for coffee first, do you want me to grab you anything?”
He
paused again
“No
Emmalyn, I don’t need anything from you”
I
hung up the phone. I was too tired to deal with what sounded like sadness in
his voice. Wasn’t he the one who was sleeping with another chick right in front
of me only a few hours ago? Isn’t he the same person who said that he doesn’t
date pretty much telling me not to expect anything? I am not one of
bunch of college guys for weeks on end, but then she always comes back looking
for Ryan.”
“He’s
pretty fed up, I asked him why he didn’t get a restraining order on her” I tell
him
“I
have told him to do it, but I think that he feels like I would resent him in
some sort of fashion if she went against it and was locked up. He tried to help
me stay straight. I don’t think he wants to see me join my dad’s club, he’s
worried I would end up in jail. Which I would, I mean everyone does time at one
point or another, but Ryan has always tried to protect me. I think that’s just
who he is, but he doesn’t want to protect Holly, but he does it for me”.
“That’s
kind of sweet of him, I mean messed up that he puts up with it but he’s a good
friend” I say
“He’s
a really good friend, but I think you are changing that” he grins looking at me
“Why
is that?” I ask
“Because
he likes you clearly, but Ryan doesn’t do long term or relationships of any
kind, you are changing things for him and he hates change. So he’s just going
to keep fighting it off. The fact that I am in here with you right now is
clearly pissing him off. I have never seen him use a girl the way that he did
tonight. He wasn’t into what he was doing, he wanted a reaction out of you, and
he didn’t get it. I think he’s going to be pretty angry with me when I see him
next.”
None
of this makes sense. Ryan is a guy who I messed around with, I asked him to make
us something and he refused. That was his choice, the rest of this is getting
to be too much
“I
have given him a chance to make something out of what we have, it was his
choice to not date me. I can’t sit around all day and wait for him to change
his mind. The fact that he would use that girl in any manner at all means he is
not the guy for me, I want someone who can treat me with respect, not someone
is afraid to face his feelings. He would never be able to treat me the way I
know I deserve.”
Alex
looks at me “You are probably right, I mean he is my best friend, but I don’t
like the way he acts out. It can be pretty exhausting when you have a crazy
little sister and a man whore friend.”
“I
couldn’t do it” I laugh
Alex
left a short while later, giving me a kiss on the forehead. Before he leaves he
looks at me “you are pretty amazing Emmalyn, I’ve spent the last 7 hours with
you tonight and I can’t imagine not knowing you a little more. No matter what
happens with Ryan, I would really like to be friends with you, if you think
that’s okay?”
His
eyes are brightened with hope, he wants to keep me around. He isn’t giving me
some bull shit about not wanting to date, he’s not asking me out, but he isn’t
trying to act like a douche either. “Of course” I tell him “I would love that
Alex”
I
lean up and give him a kiss on the cheek and he leaves.
Right
after he left I checked my phone before heading to bed. There was a text from
Ryan
R:
Can you work tomorrow morning?
E:
Sorry, just getting this. What time?
He
didn’t reply. I was lying in bed just about to fall asleep 30 minutes later
when my phone rang
“Hello?”
“Hey”
Ryan says, he sounds quiet
“It’s
4:30, what do you need?” I ask
“I
just wanted to see if you could come by at around 8. I have a bunch of errands
I need done and I can go with you so you know what needs to be done for next
time.”
He
called just to give me a time. Okay.
“Um,
yeah sure. I have to go to bed now though, I am going to be exhausted, I’ll
stop for coffee first, do you want me to grab you anything?”
He
paused again
“No
Emmalyn, I don’t need anything from you”
I
hung up the phone. I was too tired to deal with what sounded like sadness in
his voice. Wasn’t he the one who was sleeping with another chick right in front
of me only a few hours ago? Isn’t he the same person who said that he doesn’t
date pretty much telling me not to expect anything? I am not one of
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