shoulders. She had a perfect nose, small lips and eyes the color of the shirt. A matching pair of gold studs occupied her left earânothing in her right. That was Ginny: always something just a tad different. Tomboy. Fantastic athlete. Yet dignified and graceful when she wanted to be. She was somebody elseâs nowâhe had heard the rumors. He swallowed dryly, attempting to clear his voice, wondering once again why he had allowed it to happen.
âHey, Dart,â she said, pulling the chair out for herself. If he had stood, if he had helped her with the chair she would have been angry at him, so he fought the urge and just sat there. Use of his abbreviated last name was not a formality; she had always called him this. He thought of himself as Joe Dart most of the time, thanks to her. She unzipped the bomber jacket. A couple of the guys were still lookingâGinny knew this, but she was accustomed to it and accepted it as flattery. She wiggled a smile onto her face, like an actor practicing in a mirror. His heart banged in his chest. Let go , he told himself.
He had been told that time heals all wounds, but if that were the case, then time was moving awfully slowly and the wounds still felt raw. And seeing herâthe freshness, the comfort with which she carried herself, her apparent happinessâwas salt in those wounds. Dart was still back on the time line somewhere. He felt adrift. He had lost Zeller and Ginny in the same two-month period. He had not yet recovered.
Jackson Browne was plaintiveâhe had messed up a relationship. You and me both, pal, Dart thought.
âYou look good,â she lied. She ordered a Dewarâs on the rocks with a twist from a woman who had looked good to Dart a few minutes earlier.
He thanked her and returned the compliment, and she managed that same fake smile again, and his heart stung. She didnât want to be here; she had better things to do. He could have died at that moment.
Shut up, Jackson , Dart thought. He didnât want to hear about someone elseâs pain, he had enough of his own. Bad idea, coming here , he realized. He looked around and his eye found the door.
âI saw you on television,â she said. âI thought youâd regained some of the weight, but I guess itâs true what they say about the camera adding ten pounds.â
âIâm okay,â he said, but they both knew.
âGood.â The Dewars arrived and she insisted on paying. She had to stretch to reach into her front pocket and Dart realized her every little movement thrilled him, and he hated himself all the more.
âHowâs Mac?â she asked.
âGreat.â Together they had recovered the Labrador from the animal shelter the weekend before they had broken up. He and Ginny used to visit the pound every Saturday morning. One of the rituals of the relationship. Twelve years old, arthritic, mostly deaf, the dog had been found hiding under a porch, stabbed eighteen times with a knife. No longer had a voice boxâwhen he tried to bark he sounded either like a balloon losing air, or gears grinding, depending on his message. He owned a serious limp, very few teeth, and the sweetest disposition on Godâs green earth. The attendant at the pound had named him Mac the Knife, and it seemed appropriate enough, and Dart had kept the name and the dog. Ginny loved Mac too, though she tried not to show it; she was private with her pain. Private with her pleasure too. Dart called out and ordered a vodkaâhe needed something stronger than the beer that was now empty in front of him.
The waitress didnât like being yelled at from across the room. Ginny didnât like it either. Dart felt like shit.
âSo?â she asked, her patience wearing thin, the conversation running out of easy topics.
âI feel a little foolish asking this,â he admitted.
A patronizing grin.
He wished there were a way to start all over. This
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