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don’t want to take the chance of things happening to prevent us from seeing each other. I bring the conversation up to him as we lie in the grass in our secret garden.
                  The stars are out tonight, like they were the first night Levi and I first kissed. We lie in the grass holding each other gazing up into the unknown. “Levi, I’ve decided something.”
                  He faces me and kisses my nose. “What?”
                  “I think I’m ready. Not tonight,” I try to make my declaration clearer. “I mean, I’d like you to be the first, if you want to be.”
                  The lopsided grin appears and I’m mush. Mortified. But, mush. “When were you thinking?”
                  How he can be so darn calm about this is beyond me. “Well, I have to set up for prom on Saturday. That won’t work. How is Friday?” I hate that this sounds like I’m making a doctor’s appointment.
                  Still calm, he answers. “Yeah, Saturday won’t work for me either. My parents have a dinner party that I have to go to. But, Friday night is good.”
                  I don’t know if he is nervous because he knows what this means to me or if he is just as uncomfortable as I am discussing sex but he definitely seems off. “Okay, Friday night it is.”
                  He kisses me softly biting my bottom lip. “Lena, I’m honored you chose me.”
                  In this moment, I feel like I made the right decision.
    ***
     
    Friday night came so quickly I barely had time to prepare. Luckily, Kaite is at my house prior to Levi picking me up. She is schooling me on everything that will happen. From the sound of it, I’m going to be a bit of pain tonight.
                  “Okay, just so you know, you will bleed. There’s no way around it. So, bring a towel or something.” Kaite warns.
                  I’m putting the final touches on my makeup as she is giving me my sex education talk. “Levi said he’d take care of everything. I’m sure wherever he is taking me, that he has all of the equipment we need.”
                  Kaite looks pensive for second. “Lena, are you sure about this? You’ve come this far. You don’t have to do this.”
                  I know Kaite worries about me. I can see it. “I want to have sex with Levi. It feels right.” I sit on the bed next to Kaite wrapping my arm around her shoulder. “I’m going to be okay, Kaite.”
                  She gives me a warm smile. “Okay. If you want this, I will support you. Go. Get deflowered!”
                  There’s a knock on my door. My mom enters greeting Kaite while taking in my appearance. I’m not sure if she can tell that I put extra effort in to how I look. “Are you going out tonight, Lena?”
                  All of the sudden, she has become mother of the fucking year since I started seeing Levi. She’s always asking where I’m going, what time I will be coming home. Before Levi, I came and went as I pleased. I prefer to keep it that way. “Yeah.”
                  Looking from me to Kaite she asks, “With Kaite?”
                  “No.”
                  “Lena, be reasonable. I just want to know where my daughter is going. Is that so much to ask?”
                  I snort with disbelief. “Mom, a month ago you couldn’t give a crap what I was doing. Let’s not pretend that we have this amazing mother-daughter relationship.”
                  Disappointment…and maybe a bit of pain splash across her face. “Be careful. Wherever you are going.” She leaves the room.
                  “Jesus, Lena. Was that really necessary?” Kaite scolds me.
                  I pack a small bag of all the things I will need to spend the