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since McKinley had been talking about something that happened years ago.   She’d overreacted, but it wasn’t only the shock of discovering Will and McKinley had been an item back in high school that stabbed at her heart, it was the sinking feeling they had been on the verge of reviving their relationship when she interrupted them.   She didn’t have to see them to know they were standing within inches of each other; their voices had come from almost exactly the same position, and McKinley’s silky tone was far too intimate to assume anything else.
    She couldn’t really blame Will for wanting to be with a whole woman, but why did it have to be McKinley?   And why did they have to carry on like that when they both had to have known she could walk in any moment?   Unless…unless Will had wanted her to overhear them.   Was it possible he’d guessed the depth of her feelings for him?   Had she misread the interest he had taken in her life, mistaking the close relationship they’d developed as something more than what it was?   The irony of it hit her like a ton of bricks; the first man she trusted enough to open her heart to had just soundly slammed the door on it.        
    Will must have seen this as his opportunity to let her know he didn’t want anything beyond friendship without having to come right out and say it.   As much as it hurt to acknowledge, Will hadn’t refrained from kissing her because he was patiently waiting until she was ready ; he hadn’t kissed her because he didn’t want to.   The cold, hard truth was that he chose to be with McKinley, a woman he could barely tolerate in high school and hadn’t seen in years rather than being with someone he actually had things in common with.   She didn’t have to ask herself why; McKinley made it blatantly obvious she could offer him things Serena wasn’t capable of at this point in her life.
    Something deep inside her began to wither.   Will had given her hope, made her believe it was possible to overcome the fears and doubts so that one day she would be able to put it all behind her and learn to love.   Now she was beginning to understand she had pinned too much on him, relied too heavily on Will to show her how to live again .  
    Serena’s shoulders slumped.   She’d let herself down and in the process she had let him down too.   By consuming so much of his time she had robbed him of the opportunity to find companionship with other women, and because of that Will was defenseless against the onslaught of sexuality McKinley had thrown at him.   The noble side of her wanted to hold them both blameless, but there was a selfish side that wouldn’t be silenced .  I t screamed that Will belonged to her, that in time she could have made him happy.   But she’d blown that, hadn’t she?   Stupid, naïve, scared little Serena had let the one man who made her feel whole again slip right through her fingers.
    Blinking back the sting of tears, Serena crossed the room to the sliding glass windows and stepped out onto the small deck.   Bracing her hands on the banister, she tilted her head back and let the night air fill her lungs.   She was not going to cry.   She’d let the fantasy of falling in love with Will and having those feeling returned override reality and it had come back to slap her in the face .  B ut he was in for a rude awakening too if he thought McKinley was capable of loving him.   How many times had she heard that same syrupy sweetness in her sister’s voice when she introduced Serena to her latest fling?  
    Sex .   That’s all McKinley thought of; seducing a new man into her bed when she’d grown bored with the last one, and how lavishly they would pay for the privilege of being there.   Serena had never really concerned herself with McKinley’s loose lifestyle before now, but it made her sick to her stomach to think of Will being used that way.   McKinley would string him along for awhile but once she