risk of the skin splitting.”
Eww! All sorts of images entered my head, making me feel nauseated.
He quickly cut through my thoughts. “But you don’t need to be concerned with that. We should be able to get you close to the same size you currently are, and because you have opted for a bilateral mastectomy, both breasts will be very similar in size and symmetry. My recommendation would be a full C cup. In my opinion, it would look best on your frame if you’re okay with downsizing a bit.”
“I’m good with downsizing,” I said as I looked over at Noah, who looked a bit uneasy right now. “What do you think, Noah?”
He looked up at me and simply said, “Whatever you want to do is fine with me. This is about you, and I want you to be happy with your decision.”
He looked conflicted. Noah was a boob man. No way around it. It killed me knowing this at this moment.
“I would like to downsize a bit, but don’t want them to be too small. I’m used to filling out my clothes, and I don’t want to go from this . . .” I stated and did a Vanna White move, showcasing my boobs. “. . . to looking like a school girl.”
Noah and Dr. Forrester both laughed, and I heard a giggle from Elizabeth. “Happy to entertain,” I said with a smirk, finally feeling more relaxed.
“No. You will not look like a school girl. I want you to feel like a confident, beautiful woman and to make you feel comfortable in your skin again,” Dr. Forrester said, looking me directly in the eye. I could see that he meant each and every word.
“Are you on board with me?” I questioned Noah. I knew this decision would affect us both, even though it was my body.
“Yes, if you’re comfortable with Dr. Forrester’s plan, let’s move forward with surgery. The sooner, the better.”
“Okay. Let’s get this scheduled,” I said.
“Wonderful, I will need Elizabeth to take a few pictures today for my records. These will help me during the reconstruction process, and we will take them a few more times throughout the process.”
He looked to Elizabeth. “When you have finished with the pictures, please contact Dr. Lauren’s office immediately to get our schedules coordinated and call the hospital to schedule surgery.”
“Sure thing. Excuse me, I’m going to step out to grab the camera and get the paperwork started. Dr. Forrester, please let me know when you’re ready for me to come back in for pictures.”
Dr. Forrester returned to his desk to look through a note in my chart. “Dr. Lauren mentioned that he would like to get this scheduled in the next week or two. With the Thanksgiving holiday coming up, it might be tight. Do you have any travel conflicts that we need to be aware of?”
“None,” Noah quickly replied. “Victoria’s health is of the utmost importance right now. We will take any day and time available.”
“Good. Victoria, I wish we hadn’t met on these terms, but I’ll take good care of you and make this process as smooth as possible. I’ll have Elizabeth get everything set up, and I’ll see you before surgery. Until then, if you have any questions, please don’t hesitate to call me directly.”
Noah stood and shook Dr. Forrester’s hand and thanked him for his time.
I sat there numb and in my own world until I heard a throat clear and looked up to see Dr. Forrester standing in front of me. “Victoria, I know this is a huge shock. Please know that I’m here to support you during this journey and that I’ll do my very best to help you feel normal again.” He placed a sympathetic hand on my shoulder. “I can tell that you’re a strong and witty woman, and you will get through this. You have an amazing future ahead of you.” After a gentle squeeze of my shoulder, he left the room.
A few moments later, Elizabeth was back. “Are you ready?” she asked.
“As ready as I’m going to be, I guess. Is it okay if Noah is in the room?”
“I’m okay with it if he is.”
Noah stood. “I
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