streets, dripping eaves, gurgling gutters; a resolute water-shedding that made you feel like reading a book in the parlor, snugly content inside the heart-warming ramifications of man.
But, no, there was no rain. The heavens were swept by large gray clouds, with an even grayer background. The streets did not glisten, but were damp and steaming. Everything was damp and steaming.
Richard walked past the city library and looked at its moist granite-blocked structure, a looming castle of books, as dreary and joyless as the day. But inside, Richard could picture the reading room, strewn with tables and chairs and busts. And in one particular corner, where the bookshelves seemed thickest and most forbidding, Richardâs own nook.
All the way up the street, he could see the familiar shamble and lean of objects which you have been looking at all your life: storefronts, telephone poles, filling station pumps, bakeries, trees rising from cement sidewalks, extinct trolley tracks, fences plastered with posters, barber shop poles whose limitless energies had fascinated his stare since childhood. And above all this hovered a gloomy, tasteless sky.
A man may be walking up the street like this, completely wrapped up within himself, and satisfied in his solitary observations. And in such a state of mind was Richard as he strode up the street, his wet soles making an irritating crunch as they ground into the sand on the cement. A man may be doing just this, and in such a case, be truthful and completely himself, with no quarter to ask and no desire to tyrannize anyone. He is just walking on a street in America. But suddenly he is accosted by an acquaintance, and immediately this man is no longer truthful and philosophic and meditative; he has to apply himself to the other individual in such a way that he becomes partly submerged within the otherâs ego-universe, and in so doing, loses his own private dignity.
âHello Richard,â is the greeting.
Richard whirls, looks at the accoster, recognizes the features, thinks for a brief second, and then finally says: âOh hello Walt!â
âHow you doinâ?â asks Walt, not really wanting to know.
âSwell.â
âStill goinâ to school?â asks Walt, the accoster.
âYeah. Iâm a Post Graduate in High this year.â
âWhat are you studyinâ?â is the next query.
âAccounting and shorthand. Iâm going to Galloway Commercial College next year.â Richard answers these questions politely and in a friendly manner, although he has no real desire to be friendly. But way down deep within him, he feels the necessity of making the other fellow feel good.
âGood!â ejaculates the other. âGood goinâ.â
âWhat are you doing, working?â asks Richard, knowing that the half-way mark of the conversation has arrived, and knowing that this question is as inevitable and necessary in social contact for him as death, taxes, and war seem to be inevitable and necessary for mankind.
âYeah. Iâm workinâ in the Nostrand,â is the answer.
The Nostrand is a by-word in Galloway; it is a large cotton mill.
âDay-shift?â asks Richard kindly, showing by his expression that he hopes it so.
âYeah.â
âGood!â says Richard. âGood thing youâre not on the night shift.â
âYou said it, Dick,â agrees the accoster.
And now comes the pause. Both sides have given short accounts of their contemporary progress. Life, at this very moment, is hinging on jobs, day-shifts and night-shifts, school, how one is doing, and studies. Life, that rich adventure, is narrowed down to a few terse sentences and obliging smiles; it has lost its grand luster, it has become nothing but a sidewalk conversation, looking into a mill-handâs fretful eyes, smelling the smoke of his cigarette, noticing his oil-stained overalls, and being open for the outpouring of the
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