Alice, âThe letter was explicit?â
She smiled. âFor a twelve-year-old girl, it was a revelation.â
âDid it have a return address?â
âNo. But the envelope had been postmarked in Gallup, New Mexico.â
âWhen?â
âFebruary, Nineteen twenty-five.â
âWhat happened to the letter?â
âI kept it for years. It was destroyed in the forties, in a fire. I was out of the country at the time and didnât find out about it until I returned.â
âAnd the woman, whoever she was, didnât sign her name?â
âNo. She signed it, âYour Heart.ââ She smiled. âIâve always thought that was rather fine. If Iâd wanted to, I suppose I couldâve found out who she was. But it wouldâve seemed like prying, like intruding on something very private and personal.â
âHow would youâve gone about finding out?â
âMy father had a Navajo guide. Raymond Yazzie. He came to El Paso once with his son, Peter, a boy about my age. A very nice boy, very clever. We got along and Peter and I began writing to each other. We corresponded for quite a while, up until the time I graduated from college. If Iâd asked him about the woman, I feel sure he wouldâve told me.â
âWould heâve known about her?â
âI suspect so. He often went along when his father acted as a guide for mine.â
I nodded. âYou said your mother learned about the affair. Do you know that for a fact?â
âYes. I heard them fighting about it, downstairs, the day he returned from that last trip. Usually they were careful not to argue in front of me, but presumably this time they thought I was asleep. Or perhaps they were both so angry they really didnât care. My mother was shrieking, howling like a madwoman. Iâd never heard her scream like that before. Nor curse like that, eitherâthe phrase âthat filthy bitchâ came up with a certain frequency. I knew she was talking about a woman, but I had no idea then specifically who she meant. Finally, she threw something at him, a vase or a plate. I heard it shatter. He stormed out the front door and left the house.â
âAnd then?â
âHe came back sometime during the nightâhe was there at breakfast, when I came downstairs. He was very subdued, very quiet, and he remained that way all week, until just before he died.â
I nodded. âIf youâre right, and your mother killed him, why would she wait a week?â
âI think that what happened, probably, was that she believed sheâd won. That sheâd convinced him not to see this woman again. And then, the night of the seventh, I think he told her he wanted a divorce.â
âDid you hear him say that?â
âNot actually hear him, no. But it makes sense. That day, the seventh, my father suddenly stopped sulking and became his old self again. As though heâd come to an important decision. He and my mother talked for a long time in the study before she came up to bed.â
I said, âAnd you really feel your mother was capable of murder?â
She smiled. âI think that given the proper circumstances, anyone is capable of murder. And my mother was not a terribly pleasant woman, Iâm afraid. She was rigid and unyielding and physically withdrawn. The classic Ice Maiden. She hated to be touched, by me or by my father. And sex, good Lord, sex was something that only happened to animals. It was at her insistence that they slept in separate rooms.â
âWhich doesnât mean she killed him.â
âNo. But she also hated Indians.â She smiled. âAlong with blacks, Jews, Catholics, and Democrats, in approximately that order. I think she must have found it especially galling that my father would leave her for a physical relationship, and with an Indian woman. I think that brittle reserve of hers mustâve simply