memory lapses areâ¦can be some of the side effects of post-traumatic stress disorder.â
 âWhat are you talking about? What happened?â
The doctor appeared bothered by the thought of having to exhume the dark details of the past yet again. But Arsonâs eyes begged to know more.
Carraway eventually replied, âStephen, your grandmotherâ¦â
âIs she okay?â Arson let the blanket keeping him warm slip off his shoulder. He sat up straight at the mention of Grandma . Â
His head was spinning as he watched beads of sweat slip from each lid. Warm and cold and confused. âWhat?â he struggled to say, feeling the twist of reality return.
âSheâs dead.â
Arsonâs mind splintered just then. âNo, sheâs not. I just saw her not too long ago. Sheâs safe, at home.â
âHome? Are you sure?â Carraway questioned. âThis isnât the first time Iâve told you. You can remember that, canât you?â
A million voices were screaming inside his head. Arson fought them all, hoping he might decipher something true within the chaos.
The doctor continued, âIt must feel like a blink to you. Time can be like that sometimes. But you havenât spoken to Kay Parker in months, Iâm afraid. Your grandmotherâ¦well, as much as it aches me to say thisâ¦is gone.â
âNo. Donât lie to me. Youâre sick,â Arson said, finally starting to recognize the air in his lungs and that chill clawing up the back of his neck. His senses returned, but his mind was still a maze.
âI know itâs painful to grasp. I understand your anger, your fear. You have endured immeasurable trauma and stress. But youâre all right now, and believe it or not, I think youâre getting better. There will be healing soon.â The doctor reached out to touch him.
 âLeave me alone,â Arson said, shoving his heel into the table. The guard in the corner rushed to the doctorâs side.
âIâm all right.â Then, addressing Arson, he said, âPlease donât be frightened by me, Stephen. Iâm not here to cause you any harm. All I want is to help. But youâre in control of all of this. You must not let yourself become a slave to these irrational behaviors. Let me help you.â
He appeared sincere, but Arson wasnât able to fully trust his senses. Any of them. Not yet. How did he know they werenât messing with him? That this wasnât some kind of conspiracy? The fact that he couldnât smell right or even taste anything in his mouth, apart from something bitter, was strange enough. Every sound was a piercing drum-beat pounding against his skull. His chest and stomach ached. It felt like a hole had been made right at the center of him. âWas I cut?â
âThe wounds you carry are self-inflicted.â
A wave of perplexity flooded Arsonâs mind. Hearing the doubt in the doctorâs voice troubled him. He wanted to scream. âIs this a nightmare? A bad dream or something?â he asked.
âNo. Itâs quite real.â Carraway let reality do some work before continuing. âMy efforts are to secure your safety. To bring you back home. I can free your mind from the burdens and the strife you carry. You donât want them. You donât need them.â Carrawayâs voice was a whisper. âWeâve gotten quite close during your time here. Canât you remember?â
Remember? No, I canât , he thought. I canât remember anything after I exploded and tore the flesh from their bones. I canât remember anything except her face.
âIâll try,â Arson said.
âGood. I know you better than you might even know yourself. You can trust me, Stephen.â
The more he called him by that name, the more it seemed to sting. He wasnât Stephen.
A slight flinch disrupted Carrawayâs posture. He slid his
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