passwords, projects from work, and Dadâs gun. Dad always says when youâre a cop in a small community, you never know when youâre gonna need your weapon. So he keeps one locked away.
I know the code to the safe. Iâm not supposed to know it, of course, but I do. Iâm responsible about it though. Itâs not like Iâm gonna tell anyone. But I do sometimes take a peek. I know my parents each have wills. And that they have a document that separates their finances. And that Dad sometimes brings home photocopies of evidence so that he can study them after hours.
I donât touch the gun. I never do. Dad did a good enough job of scaring me away from guns when I was little. Guns and motorcycles. I wonât touch either.
But tonight, after everyoneâs asleep, I creep down and look at Dadâs work file. I find a photocopy of another playing card. A joker. It looks just like the one Iâd found in my locker, with neat block letters in Sharpie edging around the perimeter. I still hold a thousand lives in my hands. But you will never find me. I am invisible. I could be right under your nose, and you know it .
After I read it, I wish that I hadnât.
I put everything back carefully, then scramble upstairs. Iâm so spooked that it feels like the shadows have eyes and the corners of the banister are pulling at me with bony arms. Yikes . I try to laugh at myself, but fail. It feels a little too convenient that one of those same playing cards just happened to be in the slats of my locker. The bomberâs got to be planting them. For me. For Dad. And maybe for other people too.
So even though I have no clue who he is, he knows who I am.
Heâs playing a game.
A game that I donât want to play.
And now Iâm totally losing my mind, because I hear this clickety-clicking sound coming from the hall, like mice are tap-dancing on Chloeâs dresser. I move forward and peek through the crack in the door to her room.
Chloeâs up. Sheâs typing on her computer, and since all the lights are out, thereâs a bluish glow emanating from the screen. The screen lights up her face with an otherworldly tint. I get the profile view, because from my position at the door, I just see the side of her face. I canât tell what sheâs typing, or even what site sheâs on.
I inch the door open, craning for a better look.
The door creaks. Her head snaps toward me. âHey.â She seems surprised and quickly moves the mouse to close out of whatever she was doing. Her hair is sticking up in all directions, and sheâs wearing the nighttime retainer that makes her slur. âYou canât sleep either?â
âNah,â I lie.
âWanna have a party?â When we were little and got scared at night, weâd sleep over in each otherâs rooms and call it a âparty.â
âSure,â I say slowly, thinking that itâs been at least four years since weâve done this. âMy place or yours?â
âYours.â Sheâs moving the mouse around again, shutting the computer down completely. âI donât want you sleeping on the floor in your old age.â
âVery funny.â
Five minutes later, Iâm in bed with the covers pulled up to my chin. I can hear Chloe shifting around on the carpet beside me. Weâve laid out comforters and pillows, and basically done everything but move her mattress over here. Chloeâs breathing evens quickly. I try to match mine to hers. Try to take myself back to a time when nighttime sleepovers were the norm and my sister and I shared all our secrets.
When life was simple.
It feels so long ago.
Strangerâs Manifesto
Entry 7
I found her, you know.
Jo.
Hanging like a puppet from the tree.
Swinging in the wind.
Eyes bulging and pointed right at me.
Accusing me.
Like somehow I could have stopped her.
Like somehow I should have stopped her.
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