turn, but Saboor kept forgetting to push her because he was busy telling another story. This time it was about the giant oak tree, which he said had magic powers. If you had a wish, he said, you had to kneel before the tree and whisper it. And if the tree agreed to grant it, it would shed exactly ten leaves upon your head.
When the swing slowed to a near stop, Parwana turned to tell Saboor to keep pushing but the words died in her throat. Saboor and Masooma were smiling at each other, and in Saboorâs hand Parwana saw the notebook.
Her
notebook.
I found it in the house
, Masooma said later.
Was it yours? Iâll pay you back for it somehow, I promise. You donât mind, do you? I just thought it was perfect for him. For his stories. Did you see the look on him? Did you, Parwana?
Parwana said no, she didnât mind, but inside she was crumpling. Over and over she pictured how her sister and Saboor had smiled at each other, the look they shared between them. Parwana might as well have winked out into thin air like a genie from one of Saboorâs stories, so unaware had they been of her presence. It cut her to the bone. That night, on her cot, she cried very quietly.
By the time she and her sister were eleven, Parwana had developed a precocious understanding of the strange behavior of boys around girls they privately liked. She saw this especially as she and Masooma walked home from school. School was really the back room of the village mosque where, in addition to teaching Koran recitation, Mullah Shekib had taught every child in the village to read and write, to memorize poetry. Shadbagh was fortunate to have such a wise man for a
malik
, the girlsâ father told them.On the way home from these lessons, the twins often came across a group of boys sitting on a wall. As the girls passed, the boys sometimes heckled, sometimes threw pebbles. Parwana usually shouted back and answered their pebbles with rocks, while Masooma always pulled her elbow and told her in a sensible voice to walk faster, to not let them anger her. But she misunderstood. Parwana was angry not because they threw pebbles but because they threw them only at Masooma. Parwana knew: They made a show of the ribbing, and the bigger the show, the deeper their desire. She noticed the way their eyes ricocheted off her and trained themselves on Masooma, forlorn with wonder, helpless to pull away. She knew that behind their crass jokes and lascivious grins, they were terrified of Masooma.
Then, one day, one of them hurled not a pebble but a rock. It rolled to the sistersâ feet. When Masooma picked it up, the boys snickered and elbowed one another. An elastic band held a sheet of paper wrapped around the rock. When they were at a safe distance, Masooma unrolled it. They both read the note.
I swear, since seeing Your face
,
the whole world is fraud and fantasy
.
The garden is bewildered as to what is leaf or blossom
.
The distracted birds canât distinguish the birdseed from the snare
.
A Rumi poem, one from Mullah Shekibâs teachings.
Theyâre getting more sophisticated
, Masooma said with a chuckle.
Below the poem, the boy had written
I want to marry you
. And, below that, he had scribbled this addendum:
Iâve got a cousin for your sister. Heâs a perfect match. They can graze my uncleâs field together
.
Masooma tore the note in half.
Donât mind them, Parwana
, she said.
Theyâre imbeciles
.
Cretins
, Parwana agreed.
Such effort it took to plaster a grin on her face. The note was bad enough, but what really stung was Masoomaâs response. The boy hadnât explicitly addressed his note to either one of them, but Masooma had casually assumed that heâd intended the poem for her and the cousin for Parwana. For the first time, Parwana saw herself through her sisterâs eyes. She saw how her sister viewed her. Which was the same as how the rest of them did. It left her gutted, what Masooma said.
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