he started to leave her at home before long, because he thought she was making eyes at me. Bekker said âGirls, theyâre not worth itâ and puffed on his clay pipe with especial satisfaction the first time she didnât come. And that evening it was really nice too. We sat for hours in the dark. The lamp got fainter and fainter, then went out. We just stayed there sitting and smoking, for hours. Every once in a while someone said something. Bavink decided that painting was the dumbest thing anyone could do. Kees didnât understand anything, as usual. âYou have to just sit quietly and stay like that,â Bavink said, and looked up at the sky. A big greenish star twinkled. âYou have to just sit quietly and stay like that and long with all your might, without knowing what for.â He filled a fresh pipe.
III
It was a strange time. And when I think about it, I realize that that time must still be happening now, it will last as long as there are young men of nineteen or twenty running around. Itâs only for us that the time is long since past.
We were on top of the world and the world was on top of us, weighing down heavily. Far below us we saw the world full of activity and industry and we despised those people, especially the important gentlemen, the ones who were always so busy and so sure theyâd gotten pretty far in the world.
But we were poor. Bekker and I had to spend most of our time at the office and do whatever those gentlemen said, and listen to their ridiculous opinions when they talked to each other, and put up with the fact that they thought they were much more clever and capable than we were. And when they thought it was cold then all the windows had to be shut and in winter the lights had to come on much too early and the curtains had to be pulled shut so we couldnât see the red sky and the twilight in the streets and we had no say in it at all.
And we had to live on streets that were too narrow, with a view of the oilcloth curtains across the street and the tasseled fringe and the potted aspidistra with an impossible flower on top.
Oh, we took our revenge, we learned languages they had never even heard of and we read books they couldnât even begin to understand, we experienced feelings they never knew existed. On Sundays we walked for hours on paths where they never went, and at the office we thought about the canals and the meadows we had seen and while they ordered us to do things that we didnât see the point of we thought about how the sun had set behind Abcoude on Sunday evening. And how we had thought our way through the whole universe, without words; and how God had filled our head, our heart, and our spine, and how stark raving mad they would look if we told them about it. And how, with all their money and their trips to Switzerland and Italy and God knows where else and with all their clever hard work, they could never feel such things.
But still, they had us in their power, they confiscated the greater part of our time, they kept us out of the sunshine and away from the meadows and the seaside. They forced us to constantly fill our thoughts with their incomprehensible business. Even though that only went so far. They chewed us out; at the office we were totally insignificant. âAh, Bekker,â they said to each other. The gentlemen had been well brought up; the woman on the third floor said âThat harebrained idiot,â but the gentlemen were too well brought up for that. And they were bright, much brighter than the woman on the second floor, whose husband was a lamplighter, a good job that didnât need much education. My boss asked me if I wrote poetry by any chance. Bekker thought that a man like him shouldnât utter the word poetry , shouldnât be allowed to. âWhat did you tell him?â I hadnât said anything, I only looked at his face and saw what a thick skull he had and I thought: âHe doesnât
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