not sure that was the problem. Day after day the older sister would try, starting over each morning with a smile across her face, greeting her in the morning. Nothing was ever good enough for Mattie and she had no intention of accepting even love from her family. The Loves were once a family full of love and sunshine, but when their mother died, their world came crashing down and Grayson was alone to bring the family back together. One early Sabbath morning the oldest daughter of Grayson was outside collecting eggs from their chickens and she evidently heard Bailey coming up close to their home and she stood staring, not knowing who would be riding out this far on the Sabbath. From what I was told, I was still passed out and was very near death. I had become extremely dehydrated from the lack of water and look emaciated. My hair was practically falling out from lack of nutrition and my clothes had worn nearly completely out. I do not remember when Meredith came running up to Bailey and looking at me, or when she screamed for her pa, but as they have said; Grayson came running from the barn and little Mattie came from the horse lot. They both got to me about the same time and Grayson untied me from Bailey and carried me into their home. I was passed out and did not come to for three days. They took wonderful care of Bailey and would even let him visit me by letting him stick his head inside the window as he would look in on me and neigh to try to wake me. Days later I recall opening my eyes very slowly and the first thing I did see was this young girl as she sat by my side and she was right up in my face. All I could see was these huge blue eyes and her golden locks of curls cascading down her shoulders. It looked like a piece of heaven as that child stared into my eyes. When I opened my eyes, it scared her so much so that she let out a holler for her pa, and that about made me jump out of my skin. By the time her pa reached the room I had jumped to a sitting position, and was staring straight ahead. I really did not know much for the rest of the day, but as time went on, I began getting my memory back and began to feel better. I was able to get up and walk about a week later and I asked if I could see Bailey and the oldest daughter led me out to the horse stables and there he was looking as healthy as the day when Nathaniel and I left for our journey. I could tell that he had been very well taken care of and someone had been brushing his coat as well. He shone like a copper penny, brand new. I was so happy to see him healthy that I broke down into tears, not being able to explain myself. The youngest daughter seemed to enjoy my company for a time, but within a two week period, she became very difficult and began to change. It shocked me and I wondered for days what I had done for her to pull away from me so hard, but one afternoon her pa came to me to explain what was going on and my heart poured out all over my lap as he told me how her mother died while she was having Mattie. The poor young wife and mother did not even get to lay her eyes upon her beautiful new child. As she pushed and let out a last scream, Mattie tumbled out of her mother’s womb and by the time Grayson had ahold of the child, his wife had closed her eyes and died. How horrible this must have been on this young husband and father to look back over at his wife expecting to see her smiling face and to see that she had passed on. He explained that he took Mattie and laid her in the arms of her mother, hoping to allow the child to bond in some way with her mother, and to catch the smell of her mother. It tore my heart out as I listened to Grayson describe that traumatic day. He also told me that Mattie somehow did receive something from lying in her mother’s arms when she was born because she grew up to love lavender as much as her mother. His wife, Maggie loved lavender and she would pick them each day from the fields nearby and set a bowl of