All of Us

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I was missed.
    It was like the old days, you
    said, and laughed.
    Dinner was a disaster.
    Everybody dead drunk by the time
    food hit the table. People
    were having a good time, a great
    time, a hell of a time, until
    somebody took somebody
    else’s fiancée upstairs. Then
    somebody pulled a knife.
    But you got in front of the guy
    as he was going upstairs
    and talked him down.
    Disaster narrowly averted,
    you said, and laughed again.
    You didn’t remember much else
    of what happened after that.
    People got into their coats
    and began to leave. You
    must have dropped off for a few
    minutes in front of the TV
    because it was screaming at you
    to get it a drink when you woke up.
    Anyway, you’re in Pittsburgh,
    and I’m in here in this
    little town on the other side
    of the country. Most everyone
    has cleared out of our lives now.
    You wanted to call me up and say hello.
    To say you were thinking
    about me, and of the old days.
    To say you were missing me.
    It was then I remembered
    back to those days and how
    telephones used to jump when they rang.
    And the people who would come
    in those early-morning hours
    to pound on the door in alarm.
    Never mind the alarm felt inside.
    I remembered that, and gravy dinners.
    Knives lying around, waiting
    for trouble. Going to bed
    and hoping I wouldn’t wake up.
    I love you, Bro, you said.
    And then a sob passed
    between us. I took hold
    of the receiver as if
    it were my buddy’s arm.
    And I wished for us both
    I could put my arms
    around you, old friend.
    I love you too, Bro.
    I said that, and then we hung up.
Our First House in Sacramento
    This much is clear to me now—even then
    our days were numbered. After our first week
    in the house that came furnished
    with somebody else’s things, a man appeared
    one night with a baseball bat. And raised it.
    I was not the man he thought I was.
    Finally, I got him to believe it.
    He wept from frustration after his anger
    left him. None of this had anything to do
    with Beatlemania. The next week these friends
    of ours from the bar where we all drank
    brought friends of theirs to our house —
    and we played poker. I lost the grocery money
    to a stranger. Who went on to quarrel
    with his wife. In his frustration
    he drove his fist through the kitchen wall.
    Then he, too, disappeared from my life forever.
    When we left that house where nothing worked
    any longer, we left at midnight
    with a U-Haul trailer and a lantern.
    Who knows what passed through the neighbors’ minds
    when they saw a family leaving their house
    in the middle of the night?
    The lantern moving behind the curtainless
    windows. The shadows going from room to room,
    gathering their things into boxes.
    I saw firsthand
    what frustration can do to a man.
    Make him weep, make him throw his fist
    through a wall. Set him to dreaming
    of the house that’s his
    at the end of the long road. A house
    filled with music, ease, and generosity.
    A house that hasn’t been lived in yet.
Next Year
    That first week in Santa Barbara wasn’t the worst thing
    to happen. The second week he fell on his head
    while drinking, just before he had to lecture.
    In the lounge, that second week, she took the microphone
    from the singer’s hands and crooned her own
    torch song. Then danced. And then passed out
    on the table. That’s not the worst, either. They
    went to jail that second week. He wasn’t driving
    so they booked him, dressed him in pajamas
    and stuck him in Detox. Told him to get some sleep.
    Told him he could see about his wife in the morning.
    But how could he sleep when they wouldn’t let him
    close the door to his room?
    The corridor’s green light entered,
    and the sound of a man weeping.
    His wife had been called upon to give the alphabet
    beside the road, in the middle of the night.
    This is strange enough. But the cops had her
    stand on one leg, close her eyes,
    and try to touch her nose with her index finger.
    All of which she failed to do.
    She went to jail for resisting

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