think I want to believe any of this? That I want some psycho, beast man claiming to be my soul mate? But I also know you can’t kill him. Maybe it’s about the ransom money.” It wasn’t. “This is crazy. I just met him. I shouldn’t…” What? Shouldn’t be this attracted to him? Shouldn’t want him? Shouldn’t think he was sexy and gorgeous and entirely lickable. Lickable? Okay, now she knew she was losing her mind. “Shouldn’t what? Risk your life for him? You’re right. That was a stupid, idiotic thing to do. I didn’t raise a stupid idiot, Willa.” “I know.” Desperation and fear coiled a knot in her stomach. Was he going to kick her off the crew? She’d disappointed him. “I raised you to be independent. To never have to rely on a male like some of those poor women on Joyadan. I hope I did not fail.” She straightened her shoulders, trying to ignore the way her stomach rolled sickeningly. She needed to take a pain inhibitor before this migraine really took hold. “I want to make you proud, Rye.” “Good. There is something about this male that causes you to do stupid things. You need to stay away from him.” Reluctantly, she nodded. She would never choose a man over her family. Especially an outsider. “I know.” “You need to choose whose side you are on. His or ours.” “Ours, of course.” But her voice wasn’t as emphatic as it should have been. There shouldn’t have been any hesitation. The crew was her life. Darac was nobody. Rye gave her a searching look and she got the feeling he saw too much. “Just so I know who has your loyalty. Because if he threatens anyone else, I will put him down. No matter who stands in my way.” She nodded, unable to speak. That migraine was picking up speed. “I hope I don’t regret not killing the bastard,” he muttered before striding off.
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Willa lay back on her bunk bed with an exhausted sigh. Today had been long and drama-filled. Fuck. Fuckity fuck. What a mess. She had really thought Rye was going to kill Darac. If she hadn’t jumped in front of him she was certain they would have been shoving his dead body out an airlock. She placed her arm across her eyes. She was exhausted and this was the first chance she’d had to sit down all day. Too much excitement. This migraine was starting to take hold and she needed to find a pain inhibitor. Normally she hated taking them because of how out of it they made her feel. But right now that sounded like heaven. Rolling onto her side, she searched for one in the small drawer beside the bed that was permanently attached to the wall. Her bunkroom wasn’t much. A bed, table, chair and a few drawers for her clothes and other stuff. No inhibitors. Shit. Either she had to force herself to make her way to medical or call Nolan to bring one to her. Or stay here and suffer. As soon as they refuelled they’d be leaving and Rye would need her in the engine room. They were already down one man. So she stood and stumbled out of the room. The headache compressing down on her head was a relief in some ways, it left her little ability to think about the last few hours. “Damn mess,” she said quietly. “Willa?” She squinted, placing her hand above her eyes to shield them even though the passage wasn’t lit that brightly. Steele loomed over her with a frown. “You okay?” “Fine,” she told him. “When are we leaving Lilan?” “There has been a delay so we’re here for another four hours. You look like shit.” He was such a charmer. “I have a headache.” “You need to get to medical.” “That’s where I was headed.” She stepped forward to move past him. “Yeah? Then you might want to turn around and head back the other way.” She stilled and looked around her. Crap, she was headed towards the engine room. Idiot. Without looking at Steele—he had to have a knowing smirk on his face—she turned. “Don’t you have something better to do?” she