were you.â
Vesey bowed to Harriet and slouched away.
ââNed and Fan sat on the log,ââ Joseph droned loudly from the old-fashioned primer Caroline had found. Harriet shut her eyes to hide her impatience.
For the rest of the day she did not see Vesey. When she left in the early evening, he was out on the tennis-court pushing the old mower. The blades whirred noisily; he did not, in all that clatter, hear her approaching and she came right up to him holding out a book. He turned in surprise and pushed his hair from his glistening forehead with a trembling hand.
âIt is too hot for you to be doing this,â Harriet said.
âI know, but I must curry favour. Though I can curry it until I am blue in the face as far as Caroline is concerned.â
âWhat have you done?â
âI have contaminated everyone within my orbit. Given meat to innocent children and encouraged in them sickly ideas about the supernatural . . .â
âWho said this?â
â. . . I have given Joseph nightmares. I am decadent and affected. I have interrupted you at your work and tried to seduce you in an empty house.â
âYou say bad things about yourself to stop other people from saying them. You hurt yourself by saying them and that last bit hurt me too.â
âDonât stammer.â
âHas Caroline said all that?â
âI can read Caroline like a book.â
âHow could she guess things which only you and I know?â
âAbout trying to seduce you?â
âYou know IÂ . . . you know that I didnât take your remark seriously.â
âDonât stammer . Perhaps you told her,â he suggested.
She did not answer. She looked down the length of the tennis-court, half of it covered with daisies, the other half shaved in irregular lines.
âOr perhaps,â he went on, watching her closely, âI mentioned it myself and it has slipped my memory. What is this?â
âA book of mine, I thought you might like to read.â
He took it from her and turned its leaves.
âI have very little time left to me, and a lot of favour-currying to do. I donât want a bad report from here as I had from school.â
âWhen are you going?â
âTomorrow after lunch.â
âI hope I see you again.â
âI hope so too Iâm sure,â he said promptly.
He put the book down on the grass and turned to the lawn-mower. He smiled at her and nodded and then at a tremendous pace and with a deafening sound went off down the tennis-court away from her.
In the morning, he was about the house, wearing his London clothes. His suitcase stood ready in the hall. Now that he was going, Caroline relented, enough to pick a basket of apples for him and roses for his mother. At lunch, he seemed excited. The children, Caroline noticed, would not meet his eye. At the sight of Harrietâs controlled smile, her over-alertness at passing plates, her over-vivacity, Caroline for the first time began to doubt what she was doing. âI have my children to consider,â she begged herself to remember; but she was not a callous woman, nor insensitive, and if there was any misery of her own creation, her own precipitating, for whatsoever good reasons it was done, she did regret it.
âYou may as well go home after lunch,â she told Harriet, trying to find some way to make amends. âJoseph can have his rest and all the letters are done.â
âIf you are sure?â Harriet replied with her polite smile. She bent over Joseph and made a border of plum-stones round his plate. âThis year, next year . . .â she began to count. Joseph looked surprised at this sudden attention.
Vesey came into the hall as she was leaving. In his dark suit he was no longer part of the holidays, nor of anything that had gone before. He seemed strange to her.
She felt no pain, no wish to hasten or prolong this moment in the sunshine
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