and pulled me with her. "I don't know what I'll do if Mike hurt you," I whispered. "I'll never forgive myself. I thought you were happy. I should have been there." She didn't say a word as we walked through the door toward my father. He looked so much older than I remembered. It looked like he was so frail. There was nothing that could have been done to save him. I made sure he had everything he needed, but there was nothing they could do. Her grip on my hand tightened as she stood beside me. Livie was always there for me. Why hadn't I done that for her?
Chapter 10 Olivia We stood there holding hands. I wanted him to know he wasn't alone. He never would be. I knew that no matter how mad I got at him, I would always be there. It seemed like forever passed. All I could do was wonder what he was thinking. Was he thinking about his dad not caring about him or something else entirely? When my dad passed, we didn't have anything big. My mom didn't want it. Zander's dad was liked by many people. Most of the town showed up for the viewing. Carol was crying as she walked up to us. I moved to pull away so they could have some time together, but Zander held tight to my hand and pulled me closer. He wrapped his mom into his other side and kissed the top of her head. Not a single tear fell from his eyes, but I could feel the emotion in his body. After sixteen years, I could still read him. He was hurting, but there was no way he was going to show it. I hoped he would talk to me before he went home. Zander took all of the stuff he bought the kids out to his car. He said he wanted to make sure it got home. I had to laugh. What did he think I was going to do? It was all opened already. I hugged his mom and then him before taking the kids back to my car. I helped Carol set everything up before guests arrived. Zander helped the kids carry their stuff into my house. The food had been delivered. We were set and ready. It was hard watching Carol talk so nicely to my face after what I had heard her say. I couldn't believe she thought I wasn't good enough for Zander. She had no idea how much I cared about him. After all of the years that passed, my feelings hadn't faded one bit. As soon as I saw his face, everything I thought was gone came flooding back. I knew I would end up asking her about her words. If I didn't, they would eat me up inside. It made me think about everything I had done for her and Pete and all of the time I gave up for them. People came and went the rest of the afternoon. The food was a hit. My desserts didn't disappoint. I watched from across the room as Zander ate a piece of cake and some cookies. He was definitely enjoying them. I knew I was going to bake the chocolate cake for him and send him home with lots of goodies. The kids had changed into play clothes and were outside with some of the stuff Zander had bought them. What I hadn't realized was that he didn't bring everything he purchased into the funeral home. That was why he wanted to take it all with him. He thought I wouldn't notice the extra toys when we got home. I wasn't sure I would ever figure him out. I went looking for him so I could give him my opinion on what I had just seen outside. He wasn't in the kitchen or living room. When I rounded the corner into the office his dad had, I heard him talking to his father's doctor. I stood quietly as they spoke. "He had the best care. They did everything they could, Zander. You know I watched over him to make sure everything you requested was done. You got him the best doctors and every treatment available. At least you know everything possible was done. Your mom hasn't questioned a single thing. When she asked about the bills, I told her the insurance covered everything. She has no idea all the bills are being sent to you," the doctor said. "I'm sorry he didn't make it." "I appreciate everything you've done to help," Zander said. "Thank you for doing it all. You know she never would have let me do anything.