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“It’s not doing anything to me now but making me feel good, so who cares if we get sweaty and a little burned,” and Fanny says to Josephine, “You have too seen Mommy walk without help before, you just don’t remember it. When you were one; that’s when her condition first started,” and Josephine says, “So I’m right, it doesn’t count if I was too young to remember it, isn’t that true, Mommy?” and she says, “I forgot one thing. I should call my doctor in New York and then my parents. Or my parents first; they’ll be delirious,” and she calls from a pay phone. Then they drive to their favorite town on the peninsula to browse around and go to an expensive restaurant for dinner, champagne, soda for the kids, “Cola, even,” he says; “it’s a special day and we’re celebrating.” Home, she shows the girls how she can climb up and down the stairs, plays a board game on the floor with them, wants to give them a bath, and Fanny says she’s too old to take one with her sister or be given one by her mother. “But it’s something I haven’t done for so long, so let me this one time,” she says. Bathes them, gets them to bed, reads a book of northern myths from where he left off last night, comes downstairs and washes up and gets in bed with him and says, “I don’t feel at all stiff or in pain and no spasticity or anything like that. Just falling asleep with my feet not twisted or freezing and nothing hurting is the most wonderful thing on earth,” and he says, “I only hope tomorrow and every day after it’ll stay like this, though why shouldn’t it?—and oh, what’d the doctor say? I forgot to ask you,” and she says, “That he never, through drugs or anything else, read or heard of or saw a remission as quick and total as mine, but that with my kind of disease he’d made a vow never to rule out anything,” and he says, “So, a hundred thousand to one, we’ll say, or a million to one, maybe, but it can happen. A complete reversal in a single minute, and my waving and incantatory words and everything—if it wasn’t a miracle from God, that is—might have set something off. Oh, I don’t know, the psychological affecting the physical somehow. Or maybe it was about to happen anyway from one or many of the things you’ve done the last few years to try to make it happen or at least start it to, and it was just a coincidence it did when I did all those presto-healo things. Or, as I said, it was ready and waiting for that one psychological thrust to lift off—no?” and she says, “You got me, and Dr. Baritz says he doesn’t know either. But I’m exhausted from all my activities and the excitement of today, so good night, sweetheart,” and kisses him and turns over on her side with her back to him; he snuggles into her, holds her breasts with one hand as he almost always does when they fall asleep, with or without making love, hears her murmuring, and says, “You praying?” and she says, “What do you think? I’m not a praying person but I’m going to open myself to anything and give it all I have so that this good thing continues,” and he says, “I’ll pray too,” and to himself in the dark he says, “Dear God, I haven’t prayed to You for years, maybe forty years, even longer, except once when one of the kids was very sick, and I truthfully then felt it was the medicines that brought her around, but please let Sally stay this way, without her illness, thank You, thank You, thank You,” and feels himself falling asleep.
    He wakes a little before six the next morning, an hour and a half before he’s to wake the girls and two hours before Sally usually gets up, does his exercises, sets the table, makes the kids’ lunches for camp, gets her breakfast in a pan and makes miso soup