obviously the better dancer. But what it suddenly felt like to Jamie, what she now understood for maybe the first time as he spun and dipped her and glided her from one side of the dance floor to the other, was that dancing was a conversation. And the things she couldnâtâwouldnâtâtell him yet in words, she could say with her moves.
In honors English that year, their class had read James Joyceâs Ulysses . Jamie, who had found it interminable, had pretty much skimmed it, despite her teacherâs assertion that assigning them Joyce had been like giving them Christmas and Easter and the Fourth of July all rolled into one.
Now, dancing with Dash, feeling the back and forth of his steps, all she could think of was the last line of Joyceâs book, from Molly Bloomâs soliloquy. The prose told about a girl who wasnât sure how to let herself fall in love. A girl who finally decided to take a leap and just say yes. Just as Jamie was deciding now. Yes, Jamie kept thinking, yes, I said yes, I will, yes.
IT WAS NEARLY two a.m. when Dash pulled up in front of the Sosa house. Jamie sat in his mini Cooper convertible and tried to keep the silly grin off her face.
âWell, I had a nice time,â Dash said after a moment of silence.
Understatement of the year, Jamie thought, catching a glimpse of herself in the carâs side mirror. Her face was still sweatyâCarmen would have said, âdewy,â but Jamie called it what it was: sweaty. Dash, on the other hand, looked as if heâd just come from a leisurely day at the beach.
âI had a nice time, too,â Jamie said, looking out the window, and praying that her mother had gotten her text message that she was out late, but hadnât sat up waiting.
Dash looked at her, as if contemplating what he would say next. For a moment, Jamie wondered if the amazing night had all been in her imagination. And then he asked, âWould it be okay if I kissed you?â
Jamie sighed, stalling as she remembered the first time she had kissed a boy. Her mind flashed back to the Bronx. It had been so embarrassing. Fifth grade. Spin the bottle. Reinaldo Lopez. The moment had left a lot to be desired. Now she tried to think of something smart-alecky and clever to reply. But she couldnât. So she just said the word that had been in her mind all night: âYes.â
Then his lips were on hers. They were pillow-soft, and Jamie felt herself get lost in the moment. This was unlike any kiss sheâd had beforeânot that there had been many of those.
Dash was an excellent kisser. So much so that Jamie soon found that trying to kiss him just once was like opening a bag of M&Mâs and trying to eat just one. She kissed him again and again, happy, surprised that sheâd found this person who could make her feel so comfortable and so good.
Then she heard it. She felt it. Dash had unsnapped her bra.
She pulled away. âWhat do you think youâre doing?â she asked.
âIâm sorry.â Dash held up his hands. âIt was an accident.â
âBras are actually intricate pieces of technology,â Jamie said, growing furious. âThey donât come off by accident.â
âI mean, it was an accident because I wasnât thinking when I did it,â Dash said. Jamie couldnât tell from the aggrieved expression on his face if he were genuinely sorry or just annoyed that she had pulled back.
âClearly you werenât,â Jamie said, her voice barely containing the rage she now felt. How could everything have been so perfect five seconds ago? She felt as if sheâd been thrown back into boarding school. âJust because I donât have money like you, just because Iâm from the Bronx, you think you can slide to second just like that? I bet you wouldnât try that with one of the girls from your fancy prep school.â
Reaching for the handle, she flung the car door open and