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âI donât wanna hear it, Mama!â Johnnie screamed.
âAll Iâm tryinâ to do is keep you from making the same mistakes I made when I was yoâ age. I know you donât understand now, but in time, you will.â
âDo you have any idea how embarrassing that was for me? Do you? Lucas Matthews is the only somebody who truly cares for me.â
âI care about you, honey,â Marguerite said as compassionately as she could.
Johnnie laughed cruelly. âYou care about me? You? Thatâs a laugh. Youâre the one who turned me out! Youâre the one who pimped me! My own mother!â
Marguerite slapped Johnnie across the face with the back of her hand. Johnnie slapped her back and the two women engaged in an all-out brawl. Marguerite grabbed Johnnie, put her in a headlock, and shouted, âWho do you think you are, disrespectinâ me and talkinâ to me like some fool on the streets? Girl, donât you know I will kill you?â
Fueled by her fury, Johnnie was stronger than Marguerite, and was able to free herself of the headlock. She grabbed Marguerite by her thick hair, put her in a headlock and flipped her. Marguerite went down hard, making a loud thud when her body hit the floor. They rolled on the floor, grunting, trying to get in blows.
Marguerite yelled between grunts, âNo face scratchin,â goddamn it. No face scratchinâ!â
Suddenly, they were back on their feet, hitting each other on the head, but not the face. Glass shattered, keepsakes broke, but they kept fighting as if it were to the death. Both women remained careful not to cut up each otherâs face. Marguerite got tired and Johnnie tackled and climbed on top of her. She slapped her silly, yelling at her after each blow was delivered. Smack! Smack! Smack! The blows went against her head.
âDonât you everââ Smack! Smack! Smack! âput your handsââ Smack! Smack! Smack! âon me again! You touch me again and Iâll kill you! You hear me? Iâll kill you!â
The stinging blows stunned Marguerite. As she shrank back from Johnnie, putting her hands up to ward off the blows, Marguerite realized her daughter was no longer a child in a womanâs body. Johnnie was a full-grown woman with a mind of her own now.
Knowing she was now in charge of her life, Johnnie shouted, âYou got a lot of nerve sayinâ you love me! How, Mama? You love me how? A year ago, I was a church-going, good Christian girl! What am I now, Mama? Iâm a whore! Your whore! Thatâs what they call me at school! The white manâs whore! Just like you, Mama! Do you know what happened to me on the way home today? Do you even care?â
Marguerite, on her feet now, tried to explain again, but Johnnie kept on giving her a piece of her mind.
âWhen I got out of school today, a crowd of kids followed me. They were sayinâ all kind of cruel things about me. One boy kept talkinâ about me. He kept sayinâ, âDonât you suck his dick, whore?â Do you know how that makes me feel, havinâ the whole neighborhood knowinâ my shame? And for what? To put food on the table and clothes on yoâ back? Well, Iâm not gonna do it no more! Not for you! Not for anybody! From now on, Iâm makinâ the rules! And I will have Lucas Matthews. Lucas was the only somebody who stood up for me. He beat the boy up for sayinâ what he said about me. Lucas likes me and I like him. And Iâll tell you something else too, Mama. Iâm gonna do it with him.â
âWhat am I supposed to do, Johnnie?â Marguerite asked, full of sorrow and remorse. âHow am I supposed to live?â
âDonât worry, Mama. Iâll keep takinâ care of you. You showed me how. Iâll say one thing for you, Mama. You were right about men. They all want me. Every last one of âem. And now that Iâm a