around.
âSometimes I really wonder about this relationship.â Click-click.
âWell, sweetie.â Gently I remove the pen from her grasp. âIs everything else okay?â
âOh god yes. We spend all our time together.â Now she tinkers with her knife and fork. âI had to tell somebody, though. My shrink appointmentâs not till tomorrow, and I thought Iâd go crazy if I kept it inside another minute.â
âWhat are friends for?â I stand up. âExcuse me for a minute, will you?â I walk toward the telephone, repeating the UHS number in my head as I extract a dime from my pocket.
âYes, can I help you?â
âIâm calling for the results of a pregnancy test.â
âDid you bring your sample in this morning, hon?â
âYes.â I loosen my hold on the receiver. âThey told me I could call after four-thirty for the results.â
âWhatâs the last name?â
âItâs Walker. W-a-lââ
âHang on a minute, hon.â She puts me on hold.
While Iâm waiting I hear the toilet flush in the menâs room. Seconds later a man emerges with a hand at his crotch, having not quite finished zipping his fly. He sees me and glares, sinking his jowls into his collar.
I nod. âNice day, isnât it?â
âFor you maybe.â He stumps off, wiping his hands on his pants.
âYeah.â I grimace rudely at his bald spot, and then the phone clicks.
âHello?â says the voice.
âYes?â
âYour test came out negative, Mandy.â
âIâm Miranda.â
âOh, right. Let me look at this again.â In the background I hear a voice saying, âLeukemia, I guess.â Someone laughs. âMiranda? Walker, right?â
âYes, thatâs me.â
âRight. Sorry, hon. I was looking at somebody elseâs chart.â
âAh.â Do I know anybody named Mandy?
âAnyway, your test came out negative too.â
âThat means Iâm not pregnant, right?â
âThatâs right, hon.â
I let out my breath, softly. âThatâs great.â
âBut only as much as can be determined within the first two weeks.â
âOh.â
âIf you still havenât gotten your period in the next week or so, you might want to come back for another test.â
âOh?â
âJust to be sure.â
âI see. Thanks.â I hang up.
Back at our table Angela is back to capping and uncapping her pen. âWanda, I feel fat. Letâs go play squash.â
âNo thanks.â
âWhy not?â
âI hate squash.â
Click-click. âHow about racquetball then?â
âI hate racquetball too.â
âThereâs a five-thirty aerobics class at the IAB.â
âI wouldnât be caught dead in an aerobics class.â
âAll right, weâll go jogging.â Click-click.
âCanât.â I take the pen away from her again. âIâm due at Robbins by six.â
âBut Wanda, weâd have so much fun zooming around together. Besides, I just bought a new Gloria Vanderbilt jogging suit at the Coop.â
âSweetie, you hate to exercise.â
âThatâs true.â She brightens. âOh well. I tried, didnât I?â
âYep. Hey, do you know anybody named Mandy?â
âMandy? No. Why?â
âNo reason.â I slip a dollar bill under my coffee cup and start gathering up my belongings. âLetâs go.â
As we walk along Mass Ave I feel myself pierced by the soft keen melancholy of impending Cambridge twilight. The sidewalk is crowded with late-afternoon traffic, mostly students streaming in and out of the copy shops and ice-cream stores.
âI donât suppose some course or another had a paper due at five oâclock?â
âFine Arts 13.â Angela looks over at me. âHow did you know? Philipâs been