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How can I help? Do you want to stop?”
    “I need… It’s too much. I need time to… Please…” I’m sobbing softly, and he wipes my tears with his thumb.
    “Eva, listen to me. Breathe in slowly. Through your nose, and breathe out through your mouth.”
    I gulp, but try to obey. Under his patient prompting I settle into a rhythm. After a few minutes I feel my heart rate steady. He’s moved his hand to place his fingers over my clit again and every time I breathe in and out the gentle motion causes a soft caress across my sensitive flesh. A sweet reminder of what we’re about. He’s still inside me, and he’s turned down the intensity of the vibrator but it’s still there, stretching my arse wide open. But it’s okay now. The vibrations continue to pulse through me and I feel full, almost impossibly stretched, but the panic has receded. I continue to breathe deeply for a few more minutes, until the sensations become pleasurable once more, sensual and fulfilling. Instinctively I squeeze around him to let him know I’m okay. He responds by softly kissing the back of my neck before starting to fuck me again, very gently, very, very slowly. He feels so good, I groan, my hands clenching into fists.
    “Tell me how this feels, love. Is it good, for you? Not too hard, too fast?”
    “It’s good, so good.” I sigh, my face still pressed into the duvet as I centre all my consciousness on the wonderful sensations building in my within me. The vibrator filling and stretching my anus is pulsing. It’s utterly delightful and I’m clenching around that shaft too, although I seem to have no conscious control over that. Nathan takes my clitoris firmly between his finger and thumb. He rolls it. And I come. Again and again and again, the orgasms crashing in waves, radiating out through my helpless, responsive body. I relinquish any lingering sense of control and surrender entirely, feeling my body go limp, boneless. Nathan feels it too and reaches under me to fully support my weight. He holds me still, gently stroking his cock in and out of me until the last tremors fade. Only then does he switch off the vibrator and slide it out, using his fingers to soothe my stretched anus. He dips his thumb into the empty space, turning it to massage the rim and instinctively I use it to squeeze around, closing up the sphincter again. Satisfied, he slides his thumb away, and pulls out of me completely. I fall to the bed, face down, exhausted.
    A moment later he is beside me, pulling me into his arms, turning me to face him. He tips my chin up and kisses me, deeply, tenderly. My arms slide up to link around his neck, and I hang on for dear life.
    Long minutes later my world is once more spinning safely on its axis and I reflect on what just happened. I think back over how something initially so terrifying, so overwhelming, became the most wonderfully erotic, intimate, sensual experience I could ever imagine. I cling onto my anchor, my face pressed into his strong chest.
    “I’m sorry,” I start, but he places his finger over my mouth to silence me.
    “Stop, sweetheart. You did well.”
    “I used a safe word. I never thought I’d…”
    “That’s what they’re for. To use when you need to, to keep yourself safe. And happy. You knew what you needed and you asked for it. And because you let me know how you were feeling I could help you. And it ended okay, yes?”
    “Oh yes, definitely very okay.”
    “And I’m glad you’ve got the idea about protecting yourself. At last. It’s something of a relief, to be honest. And like I said, we’ll make a decent sub out of you yet.” His playful pat on my bum is the only signal I need to know we’re okay.
    “Tired?” His murmur is low, sweet against my ear. I nod.
    “Me too, it’s been a hell of a long day.” He reaches down to pull the duvet around us.
    * * * *
    “Daddeee! Daddy, Daddy, Daddy.” I feel the thump of one small and another not so small body landing hard on the bed,