âHmm, good jam.â His finger squeaked against the bowl. âYouâd better have a taste.â
His silhouette blocked the starlight. She turned her head and a sticky kiss landed below her ear. She tried to relax, but her arms wouldnât move from their defensive position on his shirtfront. His next kiss grazed her cheek.
âJesse.â
âYou remembered my name.â
âThis is notââ
âI know.â He whispered, âItâs your time of the month.â
Was nothing private? Susannah twisted away, grateful the darkness hid her blush. âMen arenât supposed to know . . .â
âDidnât Matt tell you we have four sisters?â The canteen gurgled. âAnyway, you need more courting time.â
She gulped in a breath. âThank you.â
âYou get a better view lying down.â He rolled onto his back, pulled her beside him, and settled her head on his shoulder.
âIâve been thinkingââ His voice came out muffled. âAbout marching through the woods in Virginia, near the Shenandoah. Rumor said Jeb Stuart hid there, that behind every rock itched a Reb wanting to take us out. Turns my guts to ice thinking of it. Weâd try to be quiet, but someoneâd swat a fly, step on a twig, cough. Those Rebs watched us sneak through their woods. Iâd have given a monthâs rations to know where they were.â His words came clearer. He must have turned toward her. âI know what itâs like to be afraid. Susannah, weâre on the same side, you and me.â
She tried to respond, but the words wouldnât come.
âIf someone hurt you, if you tell me, then I wonât do the wrong thing, and weâll be easier with each other.â
âIâm fine.â
âI thought it might not be so difficult to talk out here in the dark.â He paused for three long breaths. âGuess not.â
Susannah had been shy her whole life. Perhaps she wasnât cut out to be a wife. She had often thought she would have been better off alone. By herself, perhaps, she could open her Pandoraâs box of thoughts, sort through them, make peace with them. In front of this stranger who pried at her with a crowbar? Impossible.
âGuess not,â he said again, his words so slow and heavy they hung in Susannahâs ears instead of blowing away.
Susannah jerked awake and sat up. âWe fell asleep outside.â
âGood morning,â Jesse said. He stretched toward the rosy glimmer in the east. âWhatâs wrong? Werenât you warm enough?â
âWhat will people think?â
âWhat people? Jake had a good time. Didnât you, boy?â
The dogâs curly tail wagged in agreement.
The sky turned the color of peach skin. âWhat a sunrise,â Susannah murmured. âAnd last nightâs starsââ
âGodâs beautiful creation.â He wrapped an arm around her and kissed the top of her head. âLike you.â
With her hair matted and dress wrinkled? Did he need spectacles? âIf youâll let go, Iâll fix you a hot breakfast to make up for last nightâs supper.â
âBreakfast isnât what Iâm hungry for, Miss Susannah.â His eyelids lowered. He drew a line down her neck.
Oh, this man! Susannah grabbed the food basket and marched down the hill. Jesse followed, serenading the dawn with a jaunty rendition of âLittle Old Sod Shanty.â
When they reached the front door, Susannah bent to examine three purplish-white flowers planted among her herbs. âAsters?â
âThey grow wild hereabouts. Fellowâs supposed to bring flowers when heâs courting.â He tipped his head, a question in his eyes.
âThank you.â
Jesse finished his morning chores all too quickly and came back to roost on the trunk while Susannah finished cooking breakfast. The cornbread would be a minute yet. She served