itâs blood. I donât know what it is. It wonât come out in the wash.â
They both gave me two-fingered salutes, touching their foreheads. Then they turned and walked into the pulsing lights, down the front lawn to their car.
I closed the door carefully. I let out a long sigh of relief. My parents hadnât awakened. I leaned my back against the door, shut my eyes, and tried to force my heartbeats to slow.
They didnât come to arrest me for murder.
But theyâd be back.
I opened my eyes and ran my fingers over the dark stain on my sleeve. Still damp.
âThe knife!â Did I say those words out loud?
The bloodstain reminded me of the knife, and I realized I didnât remember what I had done with it.
The murder weapon.
In my horror, in my panic, in my insane moment of deadly rageâdid I leave it beside Bladeâs body? Did I just toss it to the ground and run?
Or did I take it with me?
I suddenly pictured dropping it in my bag. My bag â¦
Iâd left it by the kitchen door. Taking a deep breath, I pushed myself away from the front door and made my way to the kitchen. I grabbed the bag by the twin handles and carried it up to my room.
Holding the bag brought back all my panic, all the horror of that terrible scene beside Bladeâs house. The tug-of-warâBlade and I battling over this bag in my hands.⦠If only ⦠If only I hadnât let go. If only Blade hadnât overturned the bag.â¦
The knife never would have fallen out. I never would have seen it or thought about it.⦠Or used it.
I heaved the bag onto my bed and bent to paw through it. Yes. There it was. It took only a few seconds to feel the knife at the bottom, to wrap my fingers around the handle, and lift it out. It trembled in my hand as if it were alive.
I held it in front of me and snapped it open. The silvery blade gleamed under the bedroom ceiling light, and tiny droplets of blood sparkled like jewels.
Bladeâs blood. I stared at the blade until I was nearly hypnotized by it. Stared at the glowing blood drops and the smear of blood near the handle. Stared until I wanted to scream. Until I wanted to explode.
Yes. I suddenly knew I would explodeâjust go to pieces in a furious burst of horrifying energyâif I didnât do something. If I didnât tell someone.
âI canât stand it.â The words burst from my mouth. âI canât take it. I canât keep it all inside me.â
I let the knife fall to the rug at my feet. But the sparkling blood droplets on the blade lingered in my eyes.
Before I exploded, I had to tell someone. I had to confess what I had done.
Julie . I thought immediately of my friend Julie. She was so practical, so sensible. She would listen to me. She wouldnât freak out.
I grabbed my phone in my trembling hand. The keypad came up. I stabbed at it, struggling to punch in Julieâs number.
The phone rang twice before she answered.
âJulie? Itâs me!â I cried in a high, shrill voice. And the words just lurched from my mouth as if I were vomiting them into the phone. âI killed him! I did it. Oh, help me, Julie. Please help. I killed him. I just snapped. I lost it. I snapped. And I killed Blade!â
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I choked on the last words. My throat tightened and I couldnât speak. Panting, I pressed the phone to my ear.
âWho is this?â A hoarse voice on the other end, a womanâs voice I didnât recognize. âYoung lady, is this a prank call? If it is, it isnât funny.â
Oh, wow. I glanced at my phone screen. Wrong number. Iâd called a wrong number.
âS-sorry,â I stammered. I clicked the call off before she could say anything else. I tossed the phone into my bag.
I dropped onto the bed and sat there hugging myself. I knew I wouldnât get to sleep that night. I wondered if Iâd ever sleep again.
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