elseâprobably yesterdayâs salmon. I pictured a row of heat lamps beaming down on ten-by-thirteen stainless-steel food pans: one filled to the brim with chicken parts in milk gravy, another filled with glazed sweet potatoes, a third with mashed potatoes stiff and slightly dried around the edges. By comparison, how bad could it be to eat a Quarter Pounder with Cheese? Facing this muck at the end of life, why deny myself now?
In due course, a middle-aged volunteer in a pink cotton smock came and fetched me from the reception area. As she led me down the hallway, she didnât say a word, but she did so in a very pleasant manner.
Gus was in a semiprivate room, sitting upright in the bed closest to the window. The only view was of the underside of ivy vines, dense rows of white roots that looked like the legs of millipedes. His arm was in a sling and the bruises from his fall appeared from the various gaping holes in his gown. His Medicare coverage didnât provide private-duty nursing, a phone, or a television set.
His roommateâs bed was surrounded by a curtain on a track, pulled in a half circle that delivered him from sight. In the quiet, I could hear him breathing heavily, a cross between a rasp and a sigh that had me counting his inhalations in case he stopped and it was up to me to perform CPR.
I tiptoed to Gusâs bedside and found myself using my public library voice. âHello, Mr. Vronsky. Iâm Kinsey Millhone, your next-door neighbor.â
âI know who you are! I didnât fall on my head.â Gus spoke in his normal tone, which came across as a shout. I glanced uneasily toward his roommateâs bed, wondering if the poor guy would be jarred out of his sleep.
I placed the items Iâd bought on the rolling table beside Gusâs bed, hoping to appease his ill temper. âI brought you a candy bar and some magazines. Howâre you doing?â
âWhatâs it look like? I hurt.â
âI can just imagine,â I murmured.
âQuit that whispering and talk like a normal human being. If you donât raise your voice, I canât hear a word.â
âSorry.â
âSorry doesnât help. Before you ask another stupid question, Iâm sitting up like this because if I lie on my back the pain is worse. Right now, the throbbingâs excruciating and it makes my whole body feel like hell. Look at this bruise from all the blood theyâve drawn. Must have been a quart and a half in four big tubes. The lab report says Iâm anemic, but I didnât have a problem until they started in.â
I kept my expression sympathetic, but I was fresh out of consolation.
Gus snorted with disgust. âOne day in this bed and my backside is raw. Iâll be covered with sores if Iâm here one more day.â
âYou ought to mention it to your doctor or one of the nurses.â
âWhat doctor? What nurses? No oneâs been in for the past two hours. Anyway, that doctorâs an idiot. He has no idea what heâs talking about. What did he say about my release? He better sign it soon or Iâm walking out. I may be sick, but Iâm not a prisonerâunless getting old is a crime, which is how itâs regarded in this country.â
âI havenât talked to the floor nurse, but Henry will be here in a bit and he can ask. I did call your niece in New York to let her know what was going on.â
âMelanie? Sheâs useless, too busy and self-absorbed to worry about the likes of me.â
âI didnât actually talk to her. I left a message on her machine and Iâm hoping to hear back.â
âSheâs no help. She hasnât come to visit me for years. I told her Iâm taking her out of my will. You know why I havenât done it? Because it costs too much. Why should I pay a lawyer hundreds of dollars to make sure she doesnât get a cent. Whatâs the point? Iâve got life
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