cheap, and youâre a single mother now.â
âIâm a widow, Tony.â
âWhich is worse: you wonât be getting any child support.â
Christ.
âHow are you going to get by?â
âIf youâre so concerned,â said Helen, âyou could always contribute to Mumâs fees for a while, till I get on my feet again.â
There was a significant pause. âHel, if you need anything, you only have to ask,â he said carefully. âBut you have to be realistic about your situation.â
Helen could feel a tightening in her chest. âWhat are you suggesting, Tony?â
âIâm only thinking, do you and Noah even need such a big place? The two of you must be rattling around there these days.â
âAre you saying you want to kick your only sister and your only nephew out on the street?â
âOf course Iâm not saying that,â he denied. âHelen, I realise this is an emotional time for you, but I donât know how you can even suggest that Iâd see you out on the street. I was only thinking you might be much more comfortable in a nice little townhouse, without all the maintenance ââ
âItâs not the time to sell,â said Helen flatly.
âOn the contrary, Iâve been looking on the internet and the marketâs quite strong at the moment.â
âNot everything comes down to economics, Tony! Mum is still alive. If we sold the house, that money would have to sit in a trust for her. You couldnât get your hands on it anyway.â
Her words seemed to echo down the line, all the way to London.
âThatâs not fair, Hel. I wasnât thinking of myself. Iâm thinking of you and Noah.â
He sounded genuinely hurt, but then again it was hard to tell. He worked in the theatre, after all.
âWell, it wouldnât make any difference to my situation,â Helen said after a while. âI either live here rent-free and support Mum, or I pay rent somewhere else. Iâd be struggling to do either right now.â
There was silence for a moment.
âIt sounds like youâve found yourself in that most unenviable of places, little sister,â said Tony finally.
âOh, whereâs that?â
âSmack bang between a rock and somewhere just as hard.â
Helen felt the lump rising rapidly in her chest, and a sob escaped before she could do anything to stop it.
âOh, donât,â said Tony, but not unkindly. âThatâs how you always got around me when we were kids. And Dad. Mum never fell for it though.â
Helen sniffed, collecting herself. âThatâs because you were her favourite.â
âMum didnât play favourites.â
âShe still asks for you,â said Helen, âevery single time. She doesnât even know me most days.â
âThereâs nothing I can do about that, Hel,â Tony said quietly. âIt isnât my fault, I wish you wouldnât always think the worst of me.â
âI donât.â
âIâm really not the selfish bastard you think I am.â
âI donât think that ââ
âI know itâs been hard on you, with me living over here. And Iâd send you money if I had it, but London is so expensive, youhave no idea . . .â His voice trailed off, and then he cleared his throat. âYou know Iâm sharing this place with three other people, and one blokeâs just moved out. Weâre all struggling to cover his share of the rent while we find someone to take his place.â He paused. âHey, why donât you do that?â
âWhat?â Hadnât he just said âfind someone to take his placeâ? What was he suggesting . . .?
âGet someone in to share the expenses,â said Tony.
Helen felt queasy. âWhat are you talking about?â
âA boarder.â
âWhat, a total
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