feelings but that felt damned good.
“I could have had the position being Kyle’s personal whore if I wanted to. I chose to decline and make my money the honest way. You’re one of many; I’m actually worth his time.”
Wait, he offered her the same thing? My face visibly dropped.
“Oh, you didn’t know?” Amanda says like a shark that smells blood in the water. “He didn’t tell you about Charlotte, Kelsey, or Deborah? Sorry to break it to you honey, but you’re nothing special. In the end, they leave, and I’m still here. Just like I’ll still be here after you’re gone.”
I set my face like stone and cover up the fact that she’s gotten under my skin.
“I’m not going anywhere, and you obviously know that as well. This is why you’ve been acting like such a bitch to me. You’re trying to push me out, but it won’t work. You’re nothing to me.”
“ I’ll get you out, just like I got rid of Charlotte. I’m going to give you a chance to walk away with a little bit of dignity, but if you continue to stay around. Things are going to get pretty ugly and fast,” she says.
“ Bring it on, you don’t make me nervous and know that it works both ways.
Amanda turns on her heels and storms out of the office. Who does this girl think that she is? I can’t stand bullies and it’s insulting that she believes that she can overpower me. She has met her superior this time, and I’m going to see to it that I make her life miserable.
I sit in silence as I feel steam coming out of my ears. I asked him about Amanda and he said that it was strictly professional. What he didn’t say was that he wanted it to be more than just that. He didn’t lie to me but he didn’t offer me the entire truth either. I know that I can’t really be upset about his past and I should have known that it’s something he’s offered others in the past. He did hint at the truth even if he didn’t emphatically state it. Now, that I know Amanda wants him and that he wanted her in the past, my stomach is in knots. What’s to keep him from sleeping with her? He and I never agreed on being exclusive. Now that I think about it, do we really even have much of a relationship?
I close my eyes and try to slow my heart rate. I’ve let that that girl get to me, she reminds me so much of the girl that Marcus left me for. She would hang around Marcus all the time while claiming to just be his friend. I told Marcus that she hated me but he always thought that I was just being jealous. Now, he’s with her and they’re a big happy family. My mind is spinning and I feel like my life is about to repeat itself.
I’m going to have to speak to Kyle openly about this issue so that it doesn’t fester. I need to know where we stand so that I don’t have to walk on eggshells. If he pushes me away then so be it, at least I can leave before my heart gets too caught up in whatever it is that he and I share. I would hate to give it up, but it’s only been a week, so I should get over it fast. Maybe I could just be his personal assistant I wonder. At this point that’s probably not an option for me because I can’t stand the thought of him sleeping with someone else.
I’m going to wait to bring it up. I’m not ready for reality to come crashing down on my head yet. I want to enjoy Kyle for a little bit longer before I stir things up and risk being hurt again.
***
This week is shaping up to be just as wonderful as the first. I’ve been making suggestions about little things that need to be done and Kyle has been assigning those tasks to Amanda. I think she hates me a little more every day and that suits me just fine. I’ve been doing my absolute best to block out thoughts of Kyle being with his previous assistants. He’s been making me feel so special and it’s hard to imagine him being with anyone else the same way that he’s been with me.
I’m not sure if waiting to confront him about the issue was such a good idea because
“I could have had the position being Kyle’s personal whore if I wanted to. I chose to decline and make my money the honest way. You’re one of many; I’m actually worth his time.”
Wait, he offered her the same thing? My face visibly dropped.
“Oh, you didn’t know?” Amanda says like a shark that smells blood in the water. “He didn’t tell you about Charlotte, Kelsey, or Deborah? Sorry to break it to you honey, but you’re nothing special. In the end, they leave, and I’m still here. Just like I’ll still be here after you’re gone.”
I set my face like stone and cover up the fact that she’s gotten under my skin.
“I’m not going anywhere, and you obviously know that as well. This is why you’ve been acting like such a bitch to me. You’re trying to push me out, but it won’t work. You’re nothing to me.”
“ I’ll get you out, just like I got rid of Charlotte. I’m going to give you a chance to walk away with a little bit of dignity, but if you continue to stay around. Things are going to get pretty ugly and fast,” she says.
“ Bring it on, you don’t make me nervous and know that it works both ways.
Amanda turns on her heels and storms out of the office. Who does this girl think that she is? I can’t stand bullies and it’s insulting that she believes that she can overpower me. She has met her superior this time, and I’m going to see to it that I make her life miserable.
I sit in silence as I feel steam coming out of my ears. I asked him about Amanda and he said that it was strictly professional. What he didn’t say was that he wanted it to be more than just that. He didn’t lie to me but he didn’t offer me the entire truth either. I know that I can’t really be upset about his past and I should have known that it’s something he’s offered others in the past. He did hint at the truth even if he didn’t emphatically state it. Now, that I know Amanda wants him and that he wanted her in the past, my stomach is in knots. What’s to keep him from sleeping with her? He and I never agreed on being exclusive. Now that I think about it, do we really even have much of a relationship?
I close my eyes and try to slow my heart rate. I’ve let that that girl get to me, she reminds me so much of the girl that Marcus left me for. She would hang around Marcus all the time while claiming to just be his friend. I told Marcus that she hated me but he always thought that I was just being jealous. Now, he’s with her and they’re a big happy family. My mind is spinning and I feel like my life is about to repeat itself.
I’m going to have to speak to Kyle openly about this issue so that it doesn’t fester. I need to know where we stand so that I don’t have to walk on eggshells. If he pushes me away then so be it, at least I can leave before my heart gets too caught up in whatever it is that he and I share. I would hate to give it up, but it’s only been a week, so I should get over it fast. Maybe I could just be his personal assistant I wonder. At this point that’s probably not an option for me because I can’t stand the thought of him sleeping with someone else.
I’m going to wait to bring it up. I’m not ready for reality to come crashing down on my head yet. I want to enjoy Kyle for a little bit longer before I stir things up and risk being hurt again.
***
This week is shaping up to be just as wonderful as the first. I’ve been making suggestions about little things that need to be done and Kyle has been assigning those tasks to Amanda. I think she hates me a little more every day and that suits me just fine. I’ve been doing my absolute best to block out thoughts of Kyle being with his previous assistants. He’s been making me feel so special and it’s hard to imagine him being with anyone else the same way that he’s been with me.
I’m not sure if waiting to confront him about the issue was such a good idea because
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